today is the day

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

today at 4:30 p.m.
i find out where else
the cancer may have spread
i pray it is isolated in my
breast
today i find out
the course of treatment
i have decided
a double mastectomy
just hope it has not spread

i'll keep posting

thanks much

[Koala77]

Thinking of you. :hug:

[ginnie]

I hope the cancer has not spred Eva. I really do. You are in my thoughts and prayers right now! it is 4:30 here. ginnie

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

it hasn't had the chance to spread

i'm looking into the plastic surgeon
he recommends

i am grateful

God is good

THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR PRAYERS

I FELT GOD AND IT FEELS LIKE

NOTHING I FELT IN MY LIFE ON EARTH

WARM LOVING PROTECTED IT WAS GOING TO BE OKAY

i will have a double mastectomy

with implants right after they come off
and out

i am humble

i am happy

GOD IS GOOD

THEY WILL BE DONE ASAP

PLASTIC SURGEON AND

WE COULD GET IT DONE ASAP

IT WILL BE DONE BILATERALLY

CHECK LYMPH NODES AGAIN DOUBLE CHECK

AS OF NOW NOT SEEN IN NODES

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

[Lara]

Thinking of you, Eva.
You're very strong.
:hug:

[jade01]

dear friends

it hasn't had the chance to spread

i'm looking into the plastic surgeon
he recommends

i am grateful

God is good

THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR PRAYERS

I FELT GOD AND IT FEELS LIKE

NOTHING I FELT IN MY LIFE ON EARTH

WARM LOVING PROTECTED IT WAS GOING TO BE OKAY

i will have a double mastectomy

with implants right after they come off
and out

i am humble

i am happy

GOD IS GOOD

THEY WILL BE DONE ASAP

PLASTIC SURGEON AND

WE COULD GET IT DONE ASAP

IT WILL BE DONE BILATERALLY

CHECK LYMPH NODES AGAIN DOUBLE CHECK

AS OF NOW NOT SEEN IN NODES

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!

Oh Eva, I'm so happy for you girl! Sounds like you are basicly the same as me. Good choice getting both removed! I have lots of friends who come back because high history of recurrence. Way to stop the cancer in it's tracks! I'm praying that you stay node clean as well!! Will you be getting tissue expander put in or can you get your new girls right away? It was the one time in my life, i wished i was fat. Keep us updated. Stay strong and know we are all praying for you!!!
Angel hugs to you sweetie
Sandy

[eva5667faliure]

Oh Eva, I'm so happy for you girl! Sounds like you are basicly the same as me. Good choice getting both removed! I have lots of friends who come back because high history of recurrence. Way to stop the cancer in it's tracks! I'm praying that you stay node clean as well!! Will you be getting tissue expander put in or can you get your new girls right away? It was the one time in my life, i wished i was fat. Keep us updated. Stay strong and know we are all praying for you!!!
Angel hugs to you sweetie
Sandy

dear sandy

thank you
thank you God
he said i can get them right away
who cares about the boobs
getting tattoo over them flowers
checking nodes again when taking them off
thank you
thank you God

love

[ger715]

Eva.......feel all the love around you..My eyes tear up with the joy of hearing the good news. You have so much left to offer the world. Know your courage has done so much for all of us. God is good!

Ger

[eva5667faliure]

Eva.......feel all the love around you..My eyes tear up with the joy of hearing the good news. You have so much left to offer the world. Know your courage has done so much for all of us. God is good!

Ger

i wish i could explain the magnitude of it the overwhelming feeling of warmth and a peaceful sense it is all okay.
just take them it's done.
thank you God
God is good
Amen

[ginnie]

[I am humbled profoundly at the courage you show in the face of your surgery. God is good as he has given you uncommon grace to except what must be done. I will be praying for you. You will be in my prayers nightly. Thank you for being a guide for all of us in the face of our medical problems. ginnie

[eva5667faliure]

it is all of you i celebrate

all the warmth support and unconditional love

are you kidding

thank you

from the bottom of my toes

to the heavens

God is good

Amen

Happy Holidays

[ginnie]

My prayers are with you eva, for what you are going through this day. You are not alone in spirit. God has indeed given us the gift of each other on this site. ginnie:smileypray::Girl(angel-flying):

[eva5667faliure]

my prayers are with you eva, for what you are going through this day. You are not alone in spirit. God has indeed given us the gift of each other on this site. Ginnie:smileypray::girl(angel-flying):

we are family
we are loved
we need one another
we all are

[eva5667faliure]

may you never find yourself
feeling alone
no matter what hopeless
state you may be in
i can tell you
without doubt
in my hardest of tears
i was touched
no joke
no mistake
i can forever rest
all is taken care of
i am responsible
and answer to my
GOD
be assured
i will be here to hold your hand
if need be

THANK YOU ALL
you channeled me in the
in the right direction
the
way to him
i was never alone
just needed to ask for him
that i did

AMEN

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends,

awaiting call for double mastectomy
have not changed my mind
just want it over
talk again

have a great night

[ginnie]

Peace to you over this weekend eva, while you wait for your surgery. You are in my prayers. I know you are in good hands with your doctors, and things will turn out good for you. I wish it was over for you too. Waiting for a proceedure can be hard to do. Be good to yourself Eva ginnie

[eva5667faliure]

thank you ginnie

the same in return

be well

a birthday to celebrate

Amen

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends


it still hits me every morning when i remember

i have cancer like i was just told the first time

i'm not afraid

i do believe

may i hold your hand

when you should need a hand

to hold

Merry Christmas Happy Holidays

[ginnie]

May God bless you this holy day. You are never far from my thoughts. I hope your surgery date comes up soon, to be over with. Your faith is so strong, and you are an inspiration to us all. ginnie:santa::Heart:

[eva5667faliure]

dear friend

date is January 9th 2012

thank you for keeping me in your thoughts

hope your holiday spirit is still alive

God Bless
have a beautiful day!

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

i was in the process of writing
ready to post
computer took me
back at home
lost all
honestly
sometimes i feel others have
control of my computer

wrote to say

pre-op testing january 5th

[eva5667faliure]

made the appointment
find it difficult to express
what i am feeling
i have to wait and
check for delayed reaction
that is something i get and
don't see it sometimes
monday the 9th is on
as they take the cancer
off
my family will be with me
pay attention to your body
listen to it
during my cervical neck operations
especially after the second one
i felt in my gut something underlying
is going on
sure enough my mammo was abnormal
further testing showed cancer in my right breast
point
i had a gut feeling
SOMETHING UNDERLYING WAS GOING ON
I took action
and now i will have them take them off
please listen
don't ignore
best case it will be nothing life threatening
be good to yourself
someone who cares

[ger715]

Dearest Eva,



Our love and prayers are with you

God is Good

God is Love

God is with you through it all

[ginnie]

You are in my prayers. You also are an inspitation to all of us. You said something real important in your last post. "To pay attention" to what you body is telling you. I want to stress the same point. WE KNOW when something isn't right. We are a mind,body,soul collection. That little inner voice I think comes from God. You won't be far from my thoughts this weekend. You will be in my heart on monday. Be brave, just like you have been. We are all behind you, and can't wait for it to be done, and that you are on the road to recovery. Being with you while you are on this path is like being with a family member and holding their hands while they go through a trauma. I wish I could hug you and hold your hand right now. ginnie:Heart:

[eva5667faliure]

the support means sooooooooooo much

may you all do well in your troubles

God is good

God is Great

Amen

may i return the blessings

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

my son is here
already sleeping
alarm set
bag ready
body mind
and spirit
ready
God is good
Amen

[Lara]

All the best to you, Eva

We'll be thinking of you. :hug:

[Rrae]

God will take you to a place of peace and serenity....
Picture this place in your mind.
No stress....no doubts.......just a quiet place to rest under the Wing of God Almighty.....

Shalom my friend....

:hug: Rae :hug:

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

i am in PAIN
as if some animal
is ripping through my
flesh chest and ripping
didn't get enough the first bite
went in quickly for seconds
i can see differently for what it is
cancer
but get this
because
from one human to another
will connect one way or another
my body still expel a great amount of fluid
my right drain slightly a tad less
than my right
also in what the eye can see
now having the responsibility
my own advocate
nothing unusual
back too
well lets put it this way
my children seem to think
in what world theirs i guess
my 13 year old the same
lets not forget
i am WONDER WOMAN
most times i am
but i could use simple things
basic food shopping
never mind
i'm tired
see you later

peace and love

[ginnie]

I am sorry your pain is that bad today. I wish you could bite the pain back and make it go away. I do remember what that is like. I hope your family will keep up with the food and shopping. Just rest and recover. I went to bed with you in my prayers, and for bizis dad in particular. At breakfast I asked God to help me when I respond to people to day. We do need each other. You will be in my prayers all day today. I wish that this recovery goes faster for you, and that the pain stays away. Can you ask for more meds. if you need it? no need to respond, just know that you are being thought of right now. ginnie

[eva5667faliure]

thank you ginnie
thank you for your care
of another human
never change that quality
i do take medicine
very powerful amounts
amounts i am uncomfortable
with
but it is what it is
pain on top of pain on top of pain and so on
i still am draining
trying not to type
a different life

you take care

[ginnie]

You are a light in the darkness for all of us. Through you, I have learned how to pray, and its importance for all of us. I hope your pain is less today. I consider it Gods gift to me, that I found this site and the guidance. ginnie

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

went to my oncology appointment
was very happy with Dr.
a piece of my breast tissue
will be sent to a doctor who reads DNA
mine will be read
this will tell us the course of action
so far my pathology report shows
my cancer is hormone driven
my estrogen levels are 90%+
so now depending on its
findings just wait and see
one thing for certain
the doctor will treat the outcome
of my genetic make-up
a pill for the next 5 five years
this test will also let the doctor
know if i need cemo
reconstructive can continue but no
implants till seen by oncologist
the pills will be hormone
hormone replacement
he explains how the cancer is talking
and telling us how to move forward
until then
keep well check your breasts
especially after 40 hormonal changes
occur on average for the next 12 years
or so then menopause
side effects from pill
hot flashes mood swings
aren't we looking at some fun stuff
anyway i'll keep posting
anyone with questions
feel free to ask me
i'll explain the best i can
take good care of yourself
God is Good
Amen!

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

go to the reconstruction surgeon tomorrow
still awaiting pathology of breast
it was sent to California
takes 3 weeks 2 more
this test is a DNA test
will determine chemo in
conjunction with HRT for 5 years
my cancer was hormone driven
i am hoping no chemo just
take tomoxifin
i would like to bypass
loosing my hair
we'll see
the spacers have lost original
fullness and if no chemo
eventually spacers come out
and permanent ones go in
so far no complaints
will keep writing
as things move along
be strong and i don't
regret my decision

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

went to booby doctor
filled spacers put in
as the breasts were taken
with the nipples
closed spacers are for
stretching the skin
to accept permanent
implants he then inserts
a needle at a special spot
of these spacers until
ready for saline or silicone
today was a 2nd fill in spacers
see him in 2 weeks
till then just got approval
my breast tissue was sent
opposite side of the country
California my dna will be
what they need to help
determine course of care
and what plan is best
for my cancer
will continue to write
take care
check your breasts
i found it
and got my mammos yearly
someone who cares

[ger715]

Eva....I have my mamo prescription sitting on my countertop. I put it out this a.m. to remind me to call for an appointment. The doctor gave me a script last August and didn't go for the mamo. He gave me another one a couple of weeks ago. I promise, I will call tomorrow and make the appointment.

(Ger)

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

the time is here
my results are at the
doctors
my DNA
unraveled
my lineage
of my health
in this facility
it's a good thing
blessed my insurance
approved such a test
grateful i am
hopeful
this will allow the doctor
the information on
the meds i will be on
my last visit he did say
it is the newest test
i pray it reveals 0
will get ready now
will bring back the news
have a great day

[ginnie]

I pray your DNA will allow the kind of medicine that will cure this disease. You are in my prayers right now Eva. I too will go get my mameogram. I have the script, and have it out to call for appt. today. My angel is right beside you. ginnie:hug:

[eva5667faliure]

dear ginnie

i start tamoxifen 20 mg one a day
the report tells my oncology doctor
i would not benefit from chemo
i only need to take tamoxifen for
2 years after that another drug
for 5 years i am thrilled one less
painful process and not having
the loss of hair but i am going
back in the sweating hormone
flux mode never without trade-off
but thankful indeed 7 year treatment
still not exempt from a return of cancer
nonetheless i am relieved i acted on it
right away and no regrets

[ginnie]

My friends mother, took this medication. Everything turned out OK. This medicine has a good reputation. When you don't have to have the IV chemo, or radiation, that is always a blessing. I think you got an answer to a prayer. Just start getting fully healthy now. I hope you have less pain today. Let Jesus hold you up during the course of treatment. That is who I pray to, to hold me up.
I hope you read that Mark has got something good going on, where he will be able to help alot of folks. Lets both pray for him too. Have a good night Eva. I hope you get no side effects from the medicine. ginnie

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

after my DND results returned
and showed a 11% chance for
reoccur and if i were to have
chemo treatment it then drops
9% therefore the treatment doesn't
make any sense with all the other
things going on with my body
i must do as much homework on
the treatment advised 20 mg
once a day for two tears and
another for 5 additional years
7 year treatment

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

new meds are making
feel ill so i am in
laying position
write later
thanks much

[ger715]

dear friends

new meds are making
feel ill so i am in
laying position
write later
thanks much

Eva,

Sorry to hear medication is making you feel ill. I hope this is only temporary.

Do you think the Oxycontin is the culprit. I take quite a large amount and have very little, if any, side effects.

Prayin...
Gerry

[ginnie]

If you medication at least takes the pain away, I guess laying down isn't so bad. Get some rest with your feet up. Maybe you could read a bit while you rest. Sorry it is making you feel bad. You are in my thoughts tonight. ginnie

[eva5667faliure]

no my dear

i am careful this Friday was a week on tamoxofin
the down side hot flashes nausea and headache
hoping my body will adjust and won't give me
any problems see the oncologist Friday end of
this week
thank you for your concerns

[ginnie]

I was hoping the side effects wouldn't happen to you. My house mates mother took this drug and got very little in the way of tummy trouble. How I wish you did not have to endure this. Sometimes the cure is harder than the condition. Rest as well as you can Eva. You can get help for the stomach with several different medications from your doctor. If it gets to be too much, ask him. take care....ginnie:hug::hug::hug:

[eva5667faliure]

:confused:Eva....I have my mamo prescription sitting on my countertop. I put it out this a.m. to remind me to call for an appointment. The doctor gave me a script last August and didn't go for the mamo. He gave me another one a couple of weeks ago. I promise, I will call tomorrow and make the appointment.

(Ger)
dear gerry

have you made your mammo appointment yet?
have you had it done yet?
concerned

[eva5667faliure]

dear ginnie

thank you for your message
the Tamoxifen is what
is giving me the nausea
it might just take a while
for my body to get acclimated
maybe not either way there
are meds to help keep others
meds down
i hope you are feeling great
the weather is getting soooooo
nice
enjoy it if you can
lots of love

[ger715]

:confused:
dear gerry

have you made your mammo appointment yet?
have you had it done yet?
concerned

Thanks to you I did go on Monday, Feb. 19th for the mamo. I received the results a few days ago. All was good.

Hopefully your body will ajdjust shortly to the Tamoxifen. I had mentioned previously, a friend taking the med for years without any mention of side effects. When I met her, she had already been on the tamoxifen and she may have had early side effects, which by the time we were friends, were long gone.

Hope you have a Blessed day.

Gerry

[eva5667faliure]

thank you
amen
take care
talk soon
still have that picture
need my daughter
take care of that

[ginnie]

What I was thinking is that maybe you were so worried about being nauseated, it happened. This particular drug is not like the coctails of poisens they give alot of cancer patients. The side effects supposedly are very mild. if it is making you sick to your stomach, it is not the usual side effect from my understanding. I am wondering if it is a conbination of meds. that is doing it, not just that tomoxifen. It should not make you so sick! I just hope it goes away for you, so you can feel better all the way around. It is hard enough with just one problem at a time. do feel better soon Eva. I will continue to pray for you. ginnie

[eva5667faliure]

thank you ginnie
love and prayers
in return
lots in return

[ger715]

thank you
amen
take care
talk soon
still have that picture
need my daughter
take care of that

The Sunday after Easter is Mercy Sunday. This Image of Divine Mercy is to be venerated that Sunday. That is.....to pray before the Image as requested on that day.

Have you spoken to your doctor about the nausea? He may be able to give you something to tide you over until your system adjusts to this medication.

Blessings,

(Gerry)

[eva5667faliure]

dear gerry

thanks for the information
and it's reason
nausea comes and goes
i go to see the oncologist
Friday
how are you feeling
these days any flowers around
you
i miss tending to a yard filled
with delicious veggies and herbs
fresh stone baked bread
and some good cheese yumm
still find myself in the past
when i would hop skip and jump
accepting is what i am working on
God always in control Amen

[ger715]

dear gerry

thanks for the information
and it's reason
nausea comes and goes
i go to see the oncologist
Friday
how are you feeling
these days any flowers around
you
i miss tending to a yard filled
with delicious veggies and herbs
fresh stone baked bread
and some good cheese yumm
still find myself in the past
when i would hop skip and jump
accepting is what i am working on
God always in control Amen


Some flowering shrubs blooming early because of unusually warm weather in our area. No longer do the flower planting as I once did. Will buy a couple of larger pots already filled with assorted flowers. As you, I do miss the vegie gardens, planting seasional flowers, etc.

Yes, "acceptance" is the key word. Took a while for that to happen; but now at least am able to enjoy better "what is" and pray I will make the best of each day God has given me.

I only hope and pray you will soon be over nausea.
Blessings,

Gerry

[Mark56]

Awakened to this morning realizing the need to give assurance and hope along with the offering of prayers in relation to this nausea and its tag alongs to bring you, your family and little pup to my focus in prayer. May God the Father lavish upon you peace, healing, means to overcome the nausea, healing and bring a moment to scratch olie behind the ears on my behalf. Blessings on yuo this day dear FRIEND,
Thank you God the Father,
Thank you God the Holy Spirit,
Thank you Jesus, the lamb who brought all of us the Way,
Agape,
Mark56:grouphug:

[eva5667faliure]

Some flowering shrubs blooming early because of unusually warm weather in our area. No longer do the flower planting as I once did. Will buy a couple of larger pots already filled with assorted flowers. As you, I do miss the vegie gardens, planting seasional flowers, etc.

Yes, "acceptance" is the key word. Took a while for that to happen; but now at least am able to enjoy better "what is" and pray I will make the best of each day God has given me.

I only hope and pray you will soon be over nausea.
Blessings,

Gerry

dear gerry

i was wondering if you
would share some of
spiritual medicine
and knowledge
on acceptance
it would be much
appreciated
if not
understood
thank you

[ger715]

dear gerry

i was wondering if you
would share some of
spiritual medicine
and knowledge
on acceptance
it would be much
appreciated
if not
understood
thank you

My spine issues began almost 6 years ago. Spine fusion/laminectomy. Surgeon said he had never seen such a red angry nerve being crushed. Having the surgery may have helped from never being able to walk. Not sure. Just a lot of pain that didn't stop though. Eventually needed a cane to help take pressure off spine. Then bladder surgery done by a very incompetent urogolist that really caused the PN to go into edema, statsis dermatatis and the awful burning of feet and ankle and leg pain as well. No more vacations; unable to drive, etc. My life had changed drastically. I, so often felt like I really did not want to go on.

I have a framed photo of my painting of the Divine Mercy on my nightstand. Every night I hold out my hands, while praying and give it "all to God". My fears, anxiety, pain and suffering, asking God to give me the strength and courage to cope and accept all that he has permitted to happen to me.

I still have my days; always will....but gradually, I realized others needed me. Even though my children are married adults. How they still need their Mom. Started trying to be more cheerful, joke and smile in spite of the awful pain. I realized I had only been thinking of myself, letting this eat away at me; especially those in the medical profession; they weren't worth making myself even more sick and depressed.

Then one day...Eva...it was like a cloud lifted and okay; no more vacations, no more of this and that; but "dear God; help me make the most of each and every day You give me". This was the life I have now and try not to dwell on what I can no longer do; but what I can do. What I no longer have; but do have. I also work hard at not living in the fear of what tomorrow may bring. By doing this, I am making tomorrow happen today. Today is enough without living in "fear" of tomorrow. We each really only have today. And when the tomorrows do come.... they might be filled with good things. For now....let's just get thru today!!!

Eva, you have taken up your "cross" and are carrying it along with Jesus. I hear and feel it in all your posts. You are now even closer with your family than ever. I know addiction; my middle daughter suffered from cocaine addiction. She is now counseling and sponsoring many of those suffering from addiction. I know your son is battleing the disease of addiction. He so needs his mother. You have shown him that recovery is possible.

Eva....your family needs you and you are such a gift to all you come in contact with. We here on NT are fortunate you have found us. You have given so many of us the knowledge that in spite of pain and suffering that;
God is Good
God is Love
God is Hope
God is present with us
here and always will be

Thank you Jesus for our dear Eva.

(Gerry)

[eva5667faliure]

My spine issues began almost 6 years ago. Spine fusion/laminectomy. Surgeon said he had never seen such a red angry nerve being crushed. Having the surgery may have helped from never being able to walk. Not sure. Just a lot of pain that didn't stop though. Eventually needed a cane to help take pressure off spine. Then bladder surgery done by a very incompetent urogolist that really caused the PN to go into edema, statsis dermatatis and the awful burning of feet and ankle and leg pain as well. No more vacations; unable to drive, etc. My life had changed drastically. I, so often felt like I really did not want to go on.

I have a framed photo of my painting of the Divine Mercy on my nightstand. Every night I hold out my hands, while praying and give it "all to God". My fears, anxiety, pain and suffering, asking God to give me the strength and courage to cope and accept all that he has permitted to happen to me.

I still have my days; always will....but gradually, I realized others needed me. Even though my children are married adults. How they still need their Mom. Started trying to be more cheerful, joke and smile in spite of the awful pain. I realized I had only been thinking of myself, letting this eat away at me; especially those in the medical profession; they weren't worth making myself even more sick and depressed.

Then one day...Eva...it was like a cloud lifted and okay; no more vacations, no more of this and that; but "dear God; help me make the most of each and every day You give me". This was the life I have now and try not to dwell on what I can no longer do; but what I can do. What I no longer have; but do have. I also work hard at not living in the fear of what tomorrow may bring. By doing this, I am making tomorrow happen today. Today is enough without living in "fear" of tomorrow. We each really only have today. And when the tomorrows do come.... they might be filled with good things. For now....let's just get thru today!!!

Eva, you have taken up your "cross" and are carrying it along with Jesus. I hear and feel it in all your posts. You are now even closer with your family than ever. I know addiction; my middle daughter suffered from cocaine addiction. She is now counseling and sponsoring many of those suffering from addiction. I know your son is battleing the disease of addiction. He so needs his mother. You have shown him that recovery is possible.

Eva....your family needs you and you are such a gift to all you come in contact with. We here on NT are fortunate you have found us. You have given so many of us the knowledge that in spite of pain and suffering that;
God is Good
God is Love
God is Hope
God is present with us
here and always will be

Thank you Jesus for our dear Eva.

(Gerry)

thank you for being honest
your sharing touched something
my emotions bring me to conflicting
tears the pain of it and the beauty
of recovery
thank you for sharing
it means much more
than you think
best to you and family

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

just posting
april 25th
i see the reconstruction
doctor my throat in my
stomach already
still not done
the spacers are still
in and haven't been filled
it will be 6 weeks
of course nervous
no more surgeries
this will be the last
until then
surgery only life saving
till my appointment
all have a blessed day

[eva5667faliure]

tomorrow will be our first day at the pool
it will be interesting
the weather is to be
the better of the three
day vacation
still going to wear bathing
suites that are low cut
i am okay with it not bad
i am certain when
permanent ones are in
it will be more than 50%
when all is said and done
i will do a 3D affect
i'll see the complete
healing tattoo nipples
and then maybe nipple rings
for the visual effect
i do not regret
not one moment
for now I DO NOT HAVE CANCER
THERE
don't like that i have to take
cancer meds
ALTHOUGH
to be honest
i am actually
saved from going through
radiation or sit for hours
as the med drip slowly into my
veins
i have been spared
the extreme
the ultimate
i loose just enough hair to remind me
why
only GOD can answer that
go to the reconstruction doctor
next week
till then
take care of your body
listen to it
feel it
get to know yourself all
over again
for me at least


someone who cares

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

wednesday i go to reconstructive
surgeon spacers are ready to
come out well see let all know
there is no sensation
skin feels dead
right breast had
the cancer much
more to it
it was to be found
deep within even though
i felt it
point
naturally both
different one more
concave than the other
opting no nipple reconstruction
possible good artist who
could tattoo 3D effect
gosh
such worries
bull ****
lets see what happens
wednesday
great for persons who endure
reconstruction is a complete
different ball game
the tamoxifen killing me
sweats again just when they
stopped
took me off of prozac
and replaced it with
lexepro
we will see
get your mammograms
check your breasts
this too must be done
to men as they too can
have breast cancer

someone who cares

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

it is time for the
spacers to be removed
and permanent balloons
to go in
not opting for
nipple reconstruction
maybe nipple rings
tattoo
this is not priority
will do something
but having spacers
have magnets
and are temporary
they will be saline
after the removal
of magnets very much
needed MRI'S can be
done as i am going
to a new doctor
for my spinal cord disorder
right now
my children did most of the work
by breastfeeding them
i produced plenty of milk
for my four children
i pray for a smooth
transition as this
will be my last evasive
surgery
i am open to
microscopic surgery
as my new doctor
is aware of

men and women
check yourself
i found mine
have had my mammos
every year for the last
11 years
it matters!

[eva5667faliure]

DEAR FRIENDS

the date for breast surgery

HERE COME SATURDAY

JULY 28TH

[ginnie]

God be with you as you go to surgery. My angel is visiting you right now and will hang around for extra help. ginnie:hug::grouphug:

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

i have had my final surgery
i am so happy no more surgery
my dear friends
i am still am experiencing
delayed reaction i knew it
used to it
so 7 years of taking
tamoxifen
hair steady loss
hope it will ease up
still looks fine
not a problem
just an fyi
my experience I FOUND THE
HAIR LOSS IS EXASPERATED
I'M CERTAIN BY
STRESS
the slow leak is slowly
easing up
will call him tomorrow

still going thru rough patches
operative word patches
enough to throw me off
my hormones are wacked
glad i know my body

i always kept saying
during my first surgery
i would say randomly
something else is wrong
something isn't right

i found my lump

don't stop touching
only you know your body
get to know it
log things down
and keep it pass it down
to those after you
history very important also

hope women get or check their partner
men are not exempt

may you all keep healthy

ask me any question if you wish

someone who cares

[ginnie]

I do have a question. did you loose all your hair all these years? Is it coming back? I did go to church. I blubbered like a baby the whole time. ginnie:eek::hug::grouphug:

[eva5667faliure]

I do have a question. did you loose all your hair all these years? Is it coming back? I did go to church. I blubbered like a baby the whole time. ginnie:eek::hug::grouphug:

hey ginnie
the answer to your question
yes
it is still happening
if you missed it
my treatment was
determined via the
results of the breast cancer

it was determined it was estrogen
driven
and that i was spared any
liquid poison (as i call it)
or concentrated radiation

so therefore

i had both
one radical (the right)
and complete removal
of the left
way different
my breast cancer was deep
rooted so much more was
taken
still comes in waves

my treatment is
tamoxifen 20mg
1 tablet daily
for 7 years
i am on my 5th bottle
i began loosing hair
about a month ago
will see doctor next week
don't know will ask him
wednesday

someone who cares

[ginnie]

Yes I care. I have alopecia universalis. auto immune, lost my hair at 29 years old, and get it back on and off all these years. It hurts too when you loose your hair. It is a deep emotional hurt, and I am sorry you have to go through it on top of the cancer effect issues. Thanks for telling me. I make a real cool Doo rag out of t-shirts from Good will. Want one? Takes me 10 minutes to cut it out. Send me PM your address and what color you want. Would do this for you in a heart beat. ginnie

[eva5667faliure]

Yes I care. I have alopecia universalis. auto immune, lost my hair at 29 years old, and get it back on and off all these years. It hurts too when you loose your hair. It is a deep emotional hurt, and I am sorry you have to go through it on top of the cancer effect issues. Thanks for telling me. I make a real cool Doo rag out of t-shirts from Good will. Want one? Takes me 10 minutes to cut it out. Send me PM your address and what color you want. Would do this for you in a heart beat. ginnie

thank you my angel
not necessary
if i loose it all
as now my hair comes out
quite a bit now
i don't no ginnie
everything is just screwed up
but i am hanging on tight
as you are
i hope life is treating you good
how are things coming along
my breasts still hurt
as the right one had the cancer
they didn't come without
problems
doing my best to
accepting things
out of my control
i know he did the
best he could
i see him next
wednesday
till then

love being sent
someone who cares

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

my chest look acceptable to me
i call it my hiccup in the road
he did the best he could
he is all happy and blah blah blah
but they aren't anything
like augmentation at all this
is what women are afraid of
as tiny as that lump i found
it was deep rooted to my back
wall remember both are the same
when removed but the cancer was
in my right breast
to the young mothers
and all mothers to be
say without any pressure
it is only my opinion
try if you can to give your child
your breast
there is a little something
different and special
never to take from bottle fed
babies because i would hope
the parent to hold their baby
or babies the connection is
feel the touch of the baby looking
at you while feeding breastfeeding
came easily
i was speaking to my ex-husband
on my side wiggled her way as she lay
next to me on my right and began suckling
all on her own my arm was under my head
holding my head up like a pillow
i have no nipples opt not to have them done
might have tattoo or piercing to give it
definition now that they have a scar that needs
work like vine of small like flowers
no biggie
dear GOD thank you
for giving me the ability to find it in
the time i did now live with treatment
after i took them off
AMEN!
ask me anything you may want to me

someone who cares

[eva5667faliure]

to express the loss
is not difficult for me
my disappointment
is just the tip of the iceberg
my gut it has never failed me
and because i did not listen
to my gut i am unhappy with
the end results will make
the best of the matter
it was my dermatologist
was able to pick up the problem
without any input and then she says
Eva
no more surgeries
how worth it is it
bingo
she made it clear
additionally she knows who he is
my point

go with YOUR GUT TALKING
IT IS YOUR LIFE AND NO
ONE KNOWS IT BETTER THAN YOU!

MY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY
January 9, 2012

had my 1st colonoscpy cleared for now
thank you GOD

please my message is preventative health care

someone who cares

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends
dear God
my brother
mother Mary

today oncologist appointment
my attitude about the implants
i could live without them
really have had poopy luck
i mean how can you make
a doctor see what he doesn't
want to see because he is the
only one that does not see what
i and others do
so self-confidence are not
in the chest
but if you are going to get them
done you expect first and foremost
trust and a good open relationship
that was my reconstructive doctor

today we deal with ridding the body
of cancer
i am on tamoxifin
going and going
one and a half year on them
it seems just like yesterday

ironically the thing that saddens
at times remember i have no
REGRETS but when i get the
chills the first thing i do
is put my hands on my chest
no nipples to get hard no sensation
but i know i took the right step
and Angelina has the ability to get
the word out there even quicker
than quick
not her mother
not her aunt
grandmother
now to have a hysterectomy
bravo bravo brave is she
something i think about
one day at a time
there are so many things
mechanically going south
i haven't been that lucky
i ask my Lord for a miracle
and go with the flow
get your mammo
do important things
around your birthday
so you don't forget
sending with LOVE

WILL BE BACK
SOMEONE WHO CARES

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

changed appointment
not feeling well
physically or mentally
to many things happening
i need it to slow down a bit
but it is priority Monday is
the day
the temp. here is in the
90 degree weather

ginnie love ya
did you get your
boobs checked yet

someone who cares

[ginnie]

No I didn't do it yet. However I have my PCP appt. this month and will get the script for it. don't worry I will do it very soon. I know you care, and I know why. I am adopted so I don't know what is in my family. Will take care it. You take care of yourself, and know that I do keep you in my prayers daily. ginnie

[BlueMajo]

Hello Eva,

I care too :hug:

I havent suffer with my breasts, well, they are horrible anyways hehe, but I have lost hair that wont be back and my eyes have always given me trouble, so, I know the feeling of dealing with an "organ".

I have learnt that we are more than "just" an organ... we are a complete soul and spirit and, bodies can be replaced, but souls cant you know....

I just want to leave you lots of hugs !!! :grouphug: :hug:

[eva5667faliure]

Hello Eva,

I care too :hug:

I havent suffer with my breasts, well, they are horrible anyways hehe, but I have lost hair that wont be back and my eyes have always given me trouble, so, I know the feeling of dealing with an "organ".

I have learnt that we are more than "just" an organ... we are a complete soul and spirit and, bodies can be replaced, but souls cant you know....

I just want to leave you lots of hugs !!! :grouphug: :hug:

your concern captured
my heart
need a friend
or a shoulder
i'm here

someone who cares

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends
get your mammogram
men and women
touch yourself
only you know your
body
it is your life

went to oncologist
took my blood work
checked under the arms
throat
and tapped on certain
parts of stomach

had pasta
getting sleepy
tired

results of cancer #'s

till then

someone who cares

[ginnie]

I have not forgotten the breast check. I get the script on the 27th of this month. All will be well. You are wonderful to keep reminding people to do this. MEN too. My dad had breast cancer.

You are in my prayers Eva. ginnie:hug::D

[eva5667faliure]

I have not forgotten the breast check. I get the script on the 27th of this month. All will be well. You are wonderful to keep reminding people to do this. MEN too. My dad had breast cancer.

You are in my prayers Eva. ginnie:hug::D

my sweet ginnie
as you are an Angel
my Love too you
you take good care
and keep on walking
that sand and let Him
carry you

someone who cares