My daughters 30th Birthday May 8th

[DiMarie]

I never thought I would not be celabrating this mile mark without my child. I have been so sad all day....She was born on Mothers day and that will be Sunday the 13th....

I miss her so much, it seems so unreal.
I love you Sissy, the kids are so sad. we know you are free from the pain and that keeps us going.

The cats are fine, but eat too much and poop too much. I never would ever have five cats. But, can not consider even giving one of your babies away.
They bring me comfort, especially when Delilah lays on my chest in the recliner and touches my cheek with her paw.

I visit you almost daily, there is a little girl statue with cats climbing on her near you. Soon it will be warm enough to plant flowers. I will bring some from your plants.

I feel you near, I can smell the scent of sweet pea and violets when I nap in my recliner, I breath as deep as I can, in peace.

I remember the last time we hugged, and the kiss and I love you we shared. I never thought it had to last nearly forever.
I love you
Mommy
A birthday Party for her a few years ago. She was naturally a blonde
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http://i114.photobucket.com/albums/n260/dimarie11/DeAnneM22.jpg

[moose53]

((((((Di)))))),

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DeAnne touched a lot of lives. She's remembered by a lot of people.

You know what stands out in the photographs, Di -- her smile. I know during parts of her life she was tortured. But, you stood by her.

I believe, Di, that those of us who get to take our next steps early have completed their work here in this realm. You helped DeAnne with that and you gave her LOVE and you gave her SMILES.

Hugs.

Barb http://chocolate-moose.p5.org.uk/MINIS/holding-hands.gif

[KathyM]

DeAnne - what a beautiful name. Throughout my pregnancy, I was told I was going to have a girl, even after an ultrasound two weeks before. I planned to name her DeAnne. At delivery, my doc said "It's a.....boy, hmmph" - so I had to change it fast to Daniel.

She was a beautiful woman DiMarie. It seems so incredibly unfair to lose a child. My heart goes out to you. :hug:

[Kathy0620]

DiMarie, what a beautiful young woman and lovely gift she was to you. I am so sorry you have to endure this pain. I also lost a daughter 15 years ago and there is nothing in life that can prepare you for their leaving. I also planted and tended flowers on her grave for many years until I could not physically do it any longer. That gave me so much comfort to be able to do something beautiful for her. It was a healing time and I hope it will be for you as well.

Prayers are winging heavenward for you today.

Kat

[Chemar]

:hug: DiMarie :hug:

I may never have known DeAnne personally but I have come to love her through you.

My prayers are lifted for you and your aching mama's heart Di
May you find much comfort from your friends and God today

:grouphug:

[Jo*mar]

GOD'S GARDEN
Author Unknown

God looked around His garden
And found an empty place.
He then looked upon the earth
And saw your tired face.

He put His arm around you
And lifted you to rest.
God's garden must be beautiful
He always takes the best.

He knew that you were suffering.
He knew you were in pain.
He knew that you would never
Get well on earth again.

He saw the road was getting rough,
And the hills were hard to climb.
So He closed your eyelids,
And whispered, "Peace be thine."

It broke our hearts to lose you,
But you didn't go alone.
For part of us went with you
The day God called you Home.

[DiMarie]

You are all such wonderful friends and caring hearts.

I did not realize how a date could make my heart ache.
Gosh you are so right about that smile. Although the torture that she lived, she loved and was loved.
I could never imagine enduring this much heart ache, Kat I am sorry to hear about your daughter, I would never want another Mom to hurt like this. Just after midnight I started with a towel instead of a tissue to handle the tears and face. I never planned it, I just woke from an early bed time and my tears flowed.

Thank you so much for sharing and caring thoughts.
Love Di

[moose53]

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v90/moose53/PICTURES/holdinghands.jpg

Barb :hug:

[Curious]

1222

i know what a difficult day is for you di. :hug:

we are all so honored that you have shared your precious girl with us.

[californiaDana]

Im so sorry DiMarie, I know how hard it is to loose a daughter, mine was 2 yrs old when she passed away but I still think of her everyday. I know there is nothing that can be said to comfort you but you are in my prayers.

Dana

[steash]

i share the same birthday as your daughter,.... i was going to say/list all the things/problems i have(self centred idiot that i am for even thinking that), but, losing a child... i have no idea how to reply....
other than this.... i would love to give you a cuddle(hug)
if you ever get the chance take advantage of a "cuddle" scottish word,its the best,warmest most genuine thing you will ever experience.
tc steash

[DiMarie]

i share the same birthday as your daughter,.... i was going to say/list all the things/problems i have(self centred idiot that i am for even thinking that), but, losing a child... i have no idea how to reply....
other than this.... i would love to give you a cuddle(hug)
if you ever get the chance take advantage of a "cuddle" scottish word,its the best,warmest most genuine thing you will ever experience.
tc steash

tc,
Thank you for replying. IT felt so good seeing your post. Where you also born on Mothers Day 1977? Please do list your situation. Keeps me more focused on life to have my cyber friends.

I felt your cyber cuddle go right through me to find your post!
Dianne

[Brokenfriend]

That was such a sweet picture. I'm so sorry. I'm sending (((Hugs))) your way. Brokenfriend:hug::hug::hug::hug:

[prairiemary]

DiMarie, what a beautiful young woman and lovely gift she was to you. I am so sorry you have to endure this pain. I also lost a daughter 15 years ago and there is nothing in life that can prepare you for their leaving. I also planted and tended flowers on her grave for many years until I could not physically do it any longer. That gave me so much comfort to be able to do something beautiful for her. It was a healing time and I hope it will be for you as well.

Prayers are winging heavenward for you today.

Kat

so sorry you had to stop tending to flowers on your daughters grave, that must be very hard. I could not bury my daughter, as i have never stayed in one place for too long.she wanted cremation, and asked her dad to build her urn, so it may seem strange, but i am comforted having her ashes near me, i could not stand it if she had a grave, and i had to move away and leave her.15 years for you, i hope that time has healed the deepest cuts to your heart.it has been 6 years for me, and right now, i am crying, crying for all of us moms, we should not outlive our babies.:hug:

[Lara]

(((Mary)))

[Lara]

[SIZE="3"]She was born on Mothers day and that will be Sunday the 13th....

Dear Di,
I know this is an old thread, but I read prairemary's post and wanted to respond to her with a hug and then I re-read your first message and then all the others too.

You have a very difficult time coming up. Keep strong and keep talking. Know that there's always someone around if you need to talk. I think of you often and know you've had a difficult time lately.

I also see Dana posted on this old thread. How sad she is no longer with us either. :(

(((cuddle))) for steash.

take care all of you.

[DiMarie]

What loving caring friends I always knew I had.
When I read and there are those gone now it seems unreal. I met a woman that lost her 19 year son last week. He was killed in Alaska from a erratic driver passing cars on the wrong side of the hwy and the young boys car was hit,

His pregnant gf was next to him, but survived. One other boy passed away also. She asked When does it stop feeling like this....
I am not sure, but for me, I look at De's pictures, her cats, her home, the car still sits....
I cry and cry.

My younger dd got awake and is needing a drink. She is in the living room with me. She sleeps on the pull out and I on the recliner, To sad and fearful of dying in our sleep, One sleeps the other keeps a silent watch I know that we do not speak this outloud, but that is what we are doing

Even with Ativan I took earlier to try and sleep with my anxiety I have a microflease towel over my face from her,
I will be saying oh the allergies have my eyes running.......

I have a wedding to go to this week. I am not sure about being able to go that far and without the kids, My heart just races

Thanks for the hugs, cuddles, love and prayers
Remember too this new Mom to loss and the heaviness she has, with being strong for the other kids,,,,,

A sad club to belong too. but I would not trade one of my friends

Many blessings and prayers to all of my friends in the cyber world,

Di:grouphug:

[Chemar]

(((((((((((((((((((Di))))))))))))))))))

praying for you and for that other mom too:(

May God hold you both close and bring comfort and reassurance :grouphug:

[Dmom3005]

I think of you alot somedays. Sending prayers.

Donna