Wonder # 72

[ckepi]

I wonder why just when I found this wonderful place life got so darnd busy?

Why I can feel so connected to people I've never met in person yet so disconnected from people I see every day?

Why life gives me so many lessons?

Why at 31 my body has started to betray me, well I know the answer to this one, I know its the MS but why?

How having a fever can push my body over the edge and make me so fatigued.

If all my board friends know even when I'm not typing I check in and read up on them.

I wonder how even though I've been through so much I still find plenty to smile about.

How even when I feel like my life is falling apart the people around me don't see it.

How my daughter's smile lights up my world.

How my dog knows when I need a good cuddle.

How the sound of my cat purring relaxes me so much.

If my DH will ever realize all need to fall in love with him every day is his smile.

Why crying can be such a relief?

What Sam would think of my life now and how he would have celebrated his 35th birthday this year?

Why is the rain so comforting?

Does every one love that first warm day of spring when the sun is shining and the breeze is blowing and you realize you'll be able to put your winter jacket away for a while?

What puts a smile on Alffee's face?

Does Nohope know I think of her often?

How is David doing today?

Hows Abaski and Doody and Curios?

Am I normal? What's normal mean any more any ways?

[Alffe]

I wonder if ckepi learned to be so insightful from having MS or learned compassion from her life's experiences...........:o

I am overwhelmed by the overcoming of adversity...is it acceptance...is it hope....:confused:

I wonder why I can't remember ckepi's real name...it's written down next to my computer...at home...:p

I also wonder when she's gonna share her book list....:D

I wonder if I can leave hugs for the room. :grouphug:

[Doody]

I wonder of ckepi knows how nice it is to see her post and how eloquent it is.

:grouphug:

[Alffe]

I wonder if Doody has to go all the way to Nebraska to get her new doggy...

I wonder if Cooper is having fun with Holly....:o

I wonder about those wet suits on the swimmers...looks cold to me!

I wonder about this time change....love to have it light longer but not dark later in the a.m............

[Doody]

I wonder if I can tell Ms. Alffe that they are going to meet me halfway in between sometime next weekend, but I don't know which day yet.

I wonder how our Ms. Holly Hussie is doing with Cooper? I wonder if I need to have a talk with those two and make sure they are ready for a commitment. :D (Mr. Cooper deserves only the best of course.)

I wonder if Ms. Alffe knows those wetsuits look cold but keep them warm.

I wonder about the movie Michael Clayton. George Clooney is so easy on me eyes. ;)

I wonder how long it will take to see my new baby, Bruna, turn into a happy playful furbaby.

I wonder at how so tired I am of winter and I've always liked winters and the hibernating and warm cuddly bed and blankets when it's frigid and snowing outside. But enough already!

I wonder that the worst blizzard I was ever in was on March 29, 1975. It lasted 2 days and I was alone in a farmhouse with pnuemonia and had to have neighbors come on snowmobiles and dig me out...couldn't even get the doors open.

I wonder at how wonderful spring will be...rain and sun and green grass. Big sigh...

[Abasaki]

I wonder why I am soooooooooooo bored today???

I wonder why it's sooooooooo quiet around here lately....

I wonder if it's because ya'll aren't bored?!?!?!

I wonder why it is that I'm so dang yappy lately?

I wonder if I can tell ya'll that I'm ok... just dealing with some frightening things right now.

I wonder what my purpose in life is???

I wonder if ya'll know that I'm really a shy person and VERY quiet when I'm around people.

I wonder where mom is taking me for dinner tomorrow???

I wonder if everyone is warm, safe, happy, and doing the best they can do tonight!?!?!

I wonder if I can just leave :hug: for all and go before I ramble on and on and on and on and on and on..... ok I'm going:eek:

:hug:
Abbie

[Doody]

I wonder how my son in law is doing today. His cousin just had a baby, born with chromosomal abnormalities including a heart defect. Little tiny thing had heart surgery last week. She died Saturday night, 11 days old. :( God speed little baby.

I wonder at how much we all need to have spring back again. I miss the green grass, trees and flowers.

[cimmonz]

If all my board friends know even when I'm not typing I check in and read up on them.


yes (hi, c!!)


I wonder if I can leave hugs for the room. :grouphug:

and yes again :)

[DMACK]

i wonder if i can tell Abbie her purpose in life is to remain kind, caring and compasionate...i think thats purpose enough

i wonder if i can say hi ckepi, i'm well thank you.

i wonder if all this studying will pay off?

i wonder if i can just leave a hi to all and a big:grouphug:

David

[nohope]

Such grief! I cannot imagine. The precious little soul is in the arms of the lord now.

I just received a phone call from my new friend I was telling you about, the one I am helping clear all the clutter from 3 suicides in her immediate family. A friend of her's just lost her 2 year old granddaughter, to sexual abuse and then murder Saturday night. This happened in Salem Oregon. All I could say to her was how sorry I was for all who have been affected by this horrific tradgedy and told her she really needs to be with her friend right now.

My God! Why?!! A friend of mine who had accompanied me to my divorce trial also lost her 3 year old Christmas of 2006 after a horrific car crash with a semi. It was the seatbelt that drug her to her death. Why? We protect our kids with all we have and by the laws and what society has taught us. How could this happen?!

After all those beautiful, wonderful years of Alffe being a wonderful parent, my God, how could you take Michael? Why?

Why did my husband, father of my children decide that an "out" was the best way to fix this mess? Why?!! God why? I am soooooooo alone and so sad. I don't want a replacement, I just want to raise my kids the right way, but how can you do that without a father? All I ever dreamed about was a family. I never thought about a career in high school, all I thought about was a family and being a mama like my mom. I keep bumping along trying to do what we used to and keep my kids active and happy. I am all they got. What should happen if I go?

Looking4hope, I don't think I have ever responded to one of your entries, but I read them daily. I truly care, as much of the things you say I can totally relate to. I just don't know what to say. I have never been one to say the "right things". I feel I have lost the majority of my friends because I am spontaneous and just blirt out the first thing that comes to mind without thinking about how it will affect the individual. I am teaching myself now to listen more and think about my response and how it will affect the person before blirting it out. I am listening, I care and I am here with everyone else.

Ckepi, I know we could talk all night. I think of you often. I know you really miss your past as I do mine. We will never forget. You are 8 years post, I am 5 months. Really, does it get any better? You loved yours, I loathed mine, but it wasn't always that way. I never thought there could be such a union between 2 people, we were inseperable and best friends. I hate him for what he did. All I demanded was that he get help and only then could a marraige counselor save us. His answer was divorce!

Ok, I am ranting. My kiddos just polished off their Taco Bell burritos. I am on a diet, so "no touch". Got to get this butt off the chair and away from the computer. So hard!

Alffe, how's the sunny side sun shine? Gotta tan? Rock on!

[FeelinGoofy]

I wonder if Doody has heard when shes getting her new furbaby yet?? :D

I wonder at how irresponsible my kids can be at times :(

I wonder when Mr and Mrs Alffe will have to leave to come home.

I wonder how Cooper is doing

I wonder if nohope know my BIL lives in Port Orford, Oregon.

I wonder if i can tell David that it is sure good to see him posting again.

I wonder where Abbie went to eat??/ :wink:

I wonder if i can tell you guys that even though i go through periods of being quiet, i still lurk and remember ALL of you in my daily prayers.
{{{HUGS}}}}

[bizi]

I wonder at the fact that steak has so many more calories than chicken...
I wonder if you guys would like some of our sun shine....
I wonder if this winter would just go away as it is very depressing....
I wonder if I can tell hope that it does get better and to keep trying....
I wonder if I can say that I truly believe that happiness is a decision...
bizi

[Doody]

I wonder that steak sounds pretty good.

I wonder that a lot of the time I have trouble eating meat...psychologically..silly, I know.

I wonder why so many professionals have told me I should eat a lot of chicken.

I wonder how excited I am to pick up Bruna on Saturday...no set time yet, but probably noonish.

I wonder...I am amazed at the snow that has melted yesterday and today. Lovely weather. Keep it comin!

[Alffe]

I wonder if Doody has ever read Good magazine..my sister saves her copies for me and there was a recent article about eating beef...pampered cows..

I wonder if the last vestage of our snow will melt today..........

I wonder if you've noticed the birds singing...:D

I wonder how far Doody has to drive to get Bruna....oh the joy!!! :grouphug:

I wonder what the dr. will say about Mr.Alffe's foot today....

I wonder if Feelin Goofy knows how glad I was to see her post...:hug:

I wonder how David's studying is going....you'll end up smarter than the average bear....*grin

I wonder why I can't find Kimmys address..wrote it on a little scrap of paper and it's disappeared...:(

I wonder what Scrabble is doing...quilting? :winky

I wonder if ckepi is having a good day or a bad day..I have no clue what normal is...:hug:

[Doody]

I wonder at how excited I am that the day after tomorrow I meet the HUA people to pick up my sweet puppy mill baby, Bruna.

I wonder also that I am very nervous about it. Doggies born and raised in a mill can be a challenge when taken into a home. I just want her to be happy for once in her life.

I wonder if No Country for Old Men is as good as it looks. What am I saying?!? Ms. Alffe gave it rave reviews and it looks like a great movie. It's for my Friday night movie night with my daughter.

I wonder if I can get my dad to build me a ramp for my deck where Bruna will be going out for potty and playing. My steps are too steep even for my old knees and climbing isn't good for doxies' backs. She is SO beautiful! Don't want her gettin hurt.

I wonder that for a change I decided to take a couple days off for spring break next week. Of course, staff doesn't just get the week off. We have to use vacation days, so just think I will! Play with my new furbaby. :heartthrob:

I wonder if poor Erin, the volunteer who has been mostly responsible for Bruna's socialization, will cry when she hands Bruna over to me. I hope not. The founders told me she is very in love with Bruna. I hope she thinks I will be a good mommy to Bruna.

I wonder A LOT what my 4 cats will think. Oi vey. Now THAT will be an adjustment, lol.

I wonder how everyone is doing. I haven't seen BJ, is she okay?

Hugs for the room. :grouphug:

OH, and a PS for Kathy...Roadie is doing fine. Her breast lumps are benign! Well, 2 of them. They did the 3rd one yesterday and I haven't heard from her yet on that. I hope that one is good news as well.

[Curious]

i wonder if i can ask for y'all prayers and good thoughts about a family issue that i can't go into? but it's really needed. :(

[Abasaki]

I wonder if Curious knows that she is in my thoughts and prayers every day... but I'm sending extra ones up right now!!!


I wonder if I can just leave :hug:'s for Curious and :hug:'s for all.... I need to crawl back into bed....


:hug:
Abbie

[Alffe]

Absolutely dear Curious...you are always here for everyone else. :grouphug:

[Wren]

I alos pray for the wonderful people in this board and I'll add extras for you dear Curious.... lots and lots of extras. :hug:

[Doody]

I wonder if I can add to the prayers going up on high. ((Curious))

[FeelinGoofy]

Same here Curious!!!! {{HUGS}}

[BJ]

I wonder if I forgot to tell you guys I was going to NC for a week to do an audit of a pork company, a hauling company and a livestock company

I wonder if you all know what a dressed pig is :eek:

I wonder why I think I'll never eat pork or beef again after some of the things I saw :(

I wonder if you know how proud of myself for flying all alone, never did it before and I didn't get lost once :D

I wonder if I can thank Wren for all the jokes she sends me every day, always brings a smile and I have quite a few to forward on but too tired tonight

I wonder if I can tell you that Hooper was a hit at the doggie pet hotel but I wonder if she thinks I'm going to get her her own TV now :rolleyes:

I wonder if Alffe knows that once Hooper finds out Cooper got engaged, she'll be heart-broken :(

I wonder if Doody knows I'm so happy she's rescuing Bruna, if only we could rescue them all :grouphug:

I wonder how Nina is doing :grouphug:

I wonder if I can ask you to think of my buddy Benton. He's in the ICU at the animal hospital. He can't urinate and he has a bad infection. He's on IV fluids and antibiotics. Since I wasn't here I don't know how long he went but he has cystitis and he's all blocked. The lady I had coming in to feed him and change his litter box didn't notice anything but she's elderly and doesn't know cats

I wonder why the partners aren't even giving me off tomorrow after traveling for 2 weeks :mad: But it was so nice being away from it all for a while

I wonder if I should unpack and get ready for work :thud:

I wonder if I can leave hugs for the room and some extra special ones for Curious :grouphug:

[nohope]

Nina is doing "ok" today. Thank you for asking. Since she didn't get her walk yesterday, she fell on the hardwood floors this morning. I have been so sick for the last couple weeks, I think I will send Sara out today to walk her in the park in our front yard. I can be a lookout from the front window.

I am thinking about Benton. Hope he is doing much better. My 15 year old himalayan went through the same thing years before. He was able to get through that tough time, but went to rest months later from renal failure. I will continue to think about Benton and wish him well.

[Doody]

I wonder if you know I'm pooped. Mission Bruna accomplished. :) http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/showthread.php?p=238009#post238009

[Looking4hope]

I know I haven't been around much but...

I wonder if I can offer prayers for Curious and

I wonder if I can tell Doody Bruna looks like she made home into some loving arms... great picks!

Hugs for the room :grouphug:

[Doody]

I wonder how Curious is doing. ((Curious))

I wonder if I can thank all of you for your support.

I wonder how sweet those velvety kisses from Bruna were last night. :)

[DMACK]

wonder..if CURIOUS.knows i'm thinking of and wishing her and family well.
David:hug::hug:

[ckepi]

Wondering if Curious feels all our prayers coming her way.

Wondering how Nina is doing? And Sending my prayers for her and her family I lost my beautiful furbaby Tibet 2 years ago and still ache for her greetings when I come home.

[nohope]

I totally understand. I have lost 3 other pets in the past 5 years that I have had most my life. My pets are family and out of a family of 8, there are only 4 of us left. I call it the "house of estrogen", even the dog's a girl:)

Hopefully Nina will be coming home tonight:)

[nohope]

Thinking of curious too and hoping she knows we care and are all thinking about her.

[Alffe]

fingers crossed that Nina will get to come home tonight. :grouphug:

Oops! I forgot to wonder....

I wonder who will start a new wonder thread as this one is getting long!