Why my suicide didn't work

[clownie]

I took to many of the wrong pills. Pluus I over took to many pills.

I was took you can't take the type of pills I took which were antidepression and pills for bipolar only and I took about 300 pills at lease. Plus the found be before it was to late.

I won"t ever try to kill myself again. It's to hurtfull to our love one. But if I ever Feel I can't handle living again I will get in my car and just leave. Which I'm about at the point right now. I don't feel if I do No one wopuld even notice I have left. Unless they need me to do some thing for them or tell me I made another mistake and they are the only ones right.

I'm so tried of being played like the fool and never knowing anything
Clownir

[Twinkletoes]

Awwww, ((((Clownie))))

Judging from your username, it would appear that you try to conceal your feelings by playing the clown. You can just be yourself here.

I've only been here since January, but have met and made many good friends. There are truly caring people who frequent this message board.

Please post more often so we can get to know you better, K? :hug:

[Alffe]

Hello again Clownie, I noticed you took BiPolar pills...are you BP? We have a forum for this...http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum38.html

Just click on that link and it will take you there. I'm really glad you didn't take your own life and as I said to you previously, I'm sure you only wanted the unrelenting pain from crs to end...not your life. :hug: Sometimes it's hard to feel the love from others because of depression. You aren't alone Clownie...these forums are a great source for support and information.

[Wren]

Hi Clownie -- I sure know what you're saying and where you're coming from. ... I understand. So please talk to me. I'll listen and I PROMISE that other people, kind people, good people will listen and talk too.

This is ONE place where people DO care .... I PROMISE:hug::hug::hug:

[KathyM]

Hi Clownie :)

I'm glad you learned it's not the answer to life's problems and got a second chance to "play the game" again. Impulsively hopping into your car can possibly lead you down a path you'd rather not follow. I don't know your circumstances, but in general I would say it's probably not a good idea if you want your situation in life to improve. Most times we unknowingly pack and take along with us all the "ugly" baggage we're trying to leave behind.

Keep it as a dream though (even as an option). In the meantime, prepare and plan for the road you'd prefer to travel. Success at life in a good way is the BEST revenge against people who have tried to hold you down in one way or another.

Just my two cents. Welcome to the forum. :)

[clownie]

My hubby is bipolar so I told all his pills as that was all the pills we had in the house his biplor pills and my anidepression meds. I never feel like i can just be my self at all any more to many people are alway telling me who I should me. I have forgotten who I am anymore. :mad:

[Alffe]

for Clownie....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ls7ila3srzI&feature=related

[who moi]

I, and many others, are very very glad that YOUR suicide didn't work...and that you are here trusting us enough to talk about it...

I think most of us if not all of us can understand the low self-esteem and self-worth...

I am battling that right now cause just yesterday, I finally broke down and cried hard in da wife's arms and wondering why I am feeling this way when I am the happiest I've ever been...

I haven't been able to really cry except to shed a little bit of tears here and there...and that hard, heart wrenching cry was really good for me...

I have finally taken her advice and am going to see a Psychiatrist soon....

I have not been able to post cause of the way my heart has been closing...

but I felt the need to come here and tell you that you are important...you may NOT feel so, but you are...
and that I will be sitting here thinking of you and holding you in my thoughts...

and these other fine folks will help hold you...whenever you need....

not sure if you are seeing anybody professional or if that you don't believe that they would help or maybe you have felt burnt by any pdocs...

but, please don't give up and keep on trying...please KEEP, on trying...


:hug:

[KathyM]

Sounds like you've got gnats flying all around you. Perhaps a little road trip or healthy getaway might give you a little time to re-introduce and reconnect yourself to you.

If not, you can hang around with the goofy people here and hold contests on who can laugh the hardest without peeing. :eek::p We don't make light of suicide, but we all agree it's important to laugh once in awhile. At the same time, we are also able to compose ourselves and speak seriously on serious matters.

[clownie]

I'm not sucidal right now. I'm just really depressed.
My life is a huge mess. I can't seen to be able to fix it. Every single part of my life is falling apart right now. Parts of my life will never get better it has been destroyed for ever. :Bawling:

[who moi]

I think you need some reinforcements, clownie...please click here... (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zvzUdM29_uA)

[shiney sue]

Thanks M. I loved that,and dear new friend,we are here if you need to talk
through your depression..I'm glad the pills didn't work,and remember
depression is a big part of the Bipolar thing please check out that group as well.and so glad your here...Hugs to all Sue

[Twinkletoes]

Thanks for that link, Moi. That song still sends tingles up and down my legs.

More hugs to Clownie. :hug: I think that is a good suggestion to rediscover yourself. UBU!

[KathyM]

Psst....Moi

It looks like Twinkletoes is calling Clownie a dog....."Sit, UBU, sit." :eek::p Next thing you know, Curious is going to show up to teach her some tricks by offering her chocolate biscuits. :eek::p

[da duck]

chocolate biscuits..........mmmmmmmmmmmmmm

also reminds me of a favorite comedian....but I will save that. Except to say...
"never put your sock in a toaster
never put jam on a magnet
never put your granny in a bag.
never suck all of the juice out of a vampire
and never lean over on a Tuesday"

[da duck]

Meant to say Hi to Clownie...but my mind wandered and it hasn't wandered back yet.
Clownie, these are the best people in the world...they listen and they care...please feel free to be yourself. I know how hard depression is and what it can take from us. :hug:
Let this be your safe place to talk...

[Gazelle]

I'm not sucidal right now. I'm just really depressed.
My life is a huge mess. I can't seen to be able to fix it. Every single part of my life is falling apart right now. Parts of my life will never get better it has been destroyed for ever. :Bawling:

Clownie,

Not every single part--you're here, you're talking to people who do understand your pain. So that part, well, that's a good part and hang on to that.

One day....
One step.....
Talk to those who understand.

That more than anything can help you heal the broken parts of YOU.
:hug::hug:

[clouds z]

dont kill yourself

try some vitimin b12 about 500 to 1500 mcg a day

it may help you

[clouds z]

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/vitamin-b12-and-depression/AN01543

Answer

Doctors have long known of the relationship between low levels of vitamin B-12 and depression. Vitamin B-12 and other B vitamins, such as folate, play a role in the production of certain neurotransmitters, which are important in regulating mood and other brain functions.

However, it is less clear whether vitamin B-12 deficiency may be the cause or the result of depression. Poor nutrition is one cause of vitamin B-12 deficiency. But poor nutrition may also be a consequence of depression. People who are depressed may lose interest in eating or make less healthy food choices, which may lead to vitamin B-12 deficiency.

A study published in the American Journal of Psychiatry in December 2002 examined the

[DMACK]

Dear Clownie

When lifes a mess, and you feel you cant fix it, its time to take stock and reflect...your body and mind need time to heal and recover..from all that stress your so obviously under....

Those arround you may not understand or at worst help you...

So you must help yourself....concentrate on YOU........
DEPRESSION IS AN EVIL COMPANION..........AN UNINVITED GUEST............

but its controlable, and in time cureable.........you have to learn to cope with its presence.......TAKE ONE DAY AT A TIME...even one hour at a time......

Pamper yourself........eat slowly little and often[healthy mind you] bath daily and lesuirely [lots of bubles, bath salts,] drink plenty of water.....gentle exercise [walking] get a camera and take a photo every day.

Cry when you need to dont hold back....better still find a empty feild and scream when needed...

dont worry or think about the past you can never change it....dont worry about the future,,as you dont know what the future holds... concentrate on today...YOU CAN do something about that.........seek medical help for the depression ASAP..........its hard to fight against on your own and medication can help.........TALK TALK AND TALK MORE........unloading your worries clears the soul...........above all remember YOU MATTER IN THIS WORLD.

David:hug:

[bizi]

My hubby is bipolar so I told all his pills as that was all the pills we had in the house his biplor pills and my anidepression meds. I never feel like i can just be my self at all any more to many people are alway telling me who I should me. I have forgotten who I am anymore. :mad:


Hi there,
There is a bipolar forum here if you want to pick our brains a bit....
I am sorry that you are going thru such a rough time....
wish I could take away some of the pain that you are having.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[who moi]

I hope your suicide is still NOT working....

I hope you are around...