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05-23-2009, 06:27 AM
Let me first state that I am 23 years old and was in decent mental shape. My diet has not always been the best but it never affected me to bad. I have been having a few problems with my cognition lately that someone at my age should not even know of yet. Recently I feel as though I'm 80 years old with all these odd problems. Just typing this alone is going to be extremely hard so bare with me if something doesn't seem to make sense grammatically.
5 months ago I was a "normal" 23 year old, had wits and decent intelligence. I started noticing that I was having trouble here and there keeping track of where I wanted to go with an idea or words just not coming to my mind. I thought it was anxiety and depression but I've been depressed and have always had anxiety my whole life and it never felt like this. 3 months ago I had a panic attack and freaked out but I didn't tell my dad who I live with what happened I just "talked" myself out of it. Then a few nights after that I had another massive panic attack and was trying to think of something that I enjoyed to snap me out of it but it just made it worse as I couldn't think of anything. So I couldn't take it I ran upstairs and told my dad what was happening he stayed cool and just talked to me and calmed me down I felt at ease but not ok.
The next 3 months up until now have been a living hell and things are getting worse. I can't help but everyday just feel deep within as though there is something terribly wrong with me and I haven't been the same since then. I feel as though I have been derealized and nothing is real anymore. I go to talk to people and nothing comes to my mind which in turn makes me anxious which then makes me feel more depressed but it's not anxiety nor depression causing this blank feeling. I'm very fatigued most of the time and have weird feelings in my head and back which is hard for me to explain. The feeling in my head is sometimes a warm or burning sensation but not all the time, sometimes it's a heavy feeling in the back of my head where it pivots into the neck. Also get this cold or tingling feeling in the top of my head. Sorry if this is long I'm just scared and need help I'm too young for this to be happening and doctors dismiss it as in my head and/or depression and give me pills to pop which I refuse to take.
Sorry if this is long or sounds like a bunch of complaining but I'm living everyday in this fog that will not go away, my memory is fading, I have no imagination anymore ( i use to be able to imagine things which doesn't happen now just blank), solving everyday problems and giving people advice is a thing of the past. My ears feel popped or full all the time. Sleep is a distant memory or old thought that I have no clue what it feels like. I sleep 4 hours a night and wake up everyday between 3-5 am only to lay there and not be able to go back to sleep. I have an appointment with a neurologist tuesday and I'm hoping they can tell me something.
5 months ago I was a "normal" 23 year old, had wits and decent intelligence. I started noticing that I was having trouble here and there keeping track of where I wanted to go with an idea or words just not coming to my mind. I thought it was anxiety and depression but I've been depressed and have always had anxiety my whole life and it never felt like this. 3 months ago I had a panic attack and freaked out but I didn't tell my dad who I live with what happened I just "talked" myself out of it. Then a few nights after that I had another massive panic attack and was trying to think of something that I enjoyed to snap me out of it but it just made it worse as I couldn't think of anything. So I couldn't take it I ran upstairs and told my dad what was happening he stayed cool and just talked to me and calmed me down I felt at ease but not ok.
The next 3 months up until now have been a living hell and things are getting worse. I can't help but everyday just feel deep within as though there is something terribly wrong with me and I haven't been the same since then. I feel as though I have been derealized and nothing is real anymore. I go to talk to people and nothing comes to my mind which in turn makes me anxious which then makes me feel more depressed but it's not anxiety nor depression causing this blank feeling. I'm very fatigued most of the time and have weird feelings in my head and back which is hard for me to explain. The feeling in my head is sometimes a warm or burning sensation but not all the time, sometimes it's a heavy feeling in the back of my head where it pivots into the neck. Also get this cold or tingling feeling in the top of my head. Sorry if this is long I'm just scared and need help I'm too young for this to be happening and doctors dismiss it as in my head and/or depression and give me pills to pop which I refuse to take.
Sorry if this is long or sounds like a bunch of complaining but I'm living everyday in this fog that will not go away, my memory is fading, I have no imagination anymore ( i use to be able to imagine things which doesn't happen now just blank), solving everyday problems and giving people advice is a thing of the past. My ears feel popped or full all the time. Sleep is a distant memory or old thought that I have no clue what it feels like. I sleep 4 hours a night and wake up everyday between 3-5 am only to lay there and not be able to go back to sleep. I have an appointment with a neurologist tuesday and I'm hoping they can tell me something.