I have been wanting to say 'hello' and encourage you in your daily struggles and hopes for the future, but have just been reading the posts on here for a while.
I also have a movement disorder, Parkinson's disease. I remember when I first noticed a slight tremor when I was about 34 yrs old. That was over 9 yrs ago, and since that first tremor, I can remember having some other not-so-obvious symptoms that started in my 20's.
I feel I can relate to you in that I also consider myself a little weird and philisofical. I simply call this being "quirky". In the dictionary it is defined as:
Adj. 1. quirky - informal terms; strikingly unconventional
far-out, offbeat, way-out, kinky
unconventional - not conventional or conformist; "unconventional life styles"
I like to think I am a non-conformist, but off-beat probably defines me better.
The reason I wanted to reply to your post was to encourage you to not give up on your plans, hopes, and ideas for the future. Hold on to them and if you have to, take baby steps towards those plans. This disorder you have might be hard to live with and even limit your abilities and mobility, but you can work around these challenges within reason. You can still accomplish what you set out to do 5 years ago. Don't give up on your dreams. Sometimes, when it gets rough, hope is the only thing we can cling to. So, have hope in a bright future and keep making plans.
My best to you,