I've been thinking of you dear Ginnie.
You have been betrayed by your doctors... betrayal hurts so badly. They are people we need to be able to look to and rely upon.
It's ok to have a good cry... i hope it will be cleansing. i only wish that i or someone could be there to hold you. I am sad to think of you sad, and sadder to think of you crying alone.
I know what you mean about cooling the jets before seeing your pain doc. That makes good sense. I do hope the encounter goes well for you Monday. Is someone coming with you?
Please know i am keeping you in my thoughts, ok? I am sure that others here are too.
~ waves ~