Focus on Blessings - Page 67

Mark56 · 05-11-2012, 10:01 AM

Fiddler on the Roof, a musical, a demonstration of a continuing dialogue between Tevye, a disillusioned, angry, devout soul who talks with God throughout the story, feeling let down, feeling lost, feeling anger in the gut, and truth be known there have been a good many among the prophets of old who lifted up anger to God from time to time. So Eva and Ginnie, I am not incapable of reading your lines and understanding there is some good bit of anger to share with God. I do get it. The good thing, He listens. He gets it. Live can be a #%@*! and His Son realized that all too well, in the temptation during the forty days alone with Satan, in the Garden where He was arrested, in prison where He was lashed with a barbed cat of nine tails, then to suffer the extreme indignity of being nailed to the cross. I do believe he had to have felt some anger at what was occurring although the sole time he revealed it was in the Temple where indignity was shown to His Father's house.

I have lived a life from early childhood which will not be shared here, for it would belong elsewhere such as on PsychCentral if I chose to reveal it, and I do not, where I learned from the crib- and I have memories that far back. An interesting perspective, looking out from a crib, and remembering it. The memories have not been suppressed. They have been shared in counseling. I understand having reasons to be hyper angry at God, but for some reason, I have not been able to do that, for it was God who was my shield all of the way back to the beginning; thus, in Him I know grace. Even so, you are not denied your ability to share anger with the Almighty, for He wants to receive your sorrow in order to help in some way with it.

As for me, I pray and pray for all who feel such sorrow.
May God truly Bless,
Amen,
Mark56

ger715 · 05-11-2012, 10:06 AM

Ginnie,
Seeing God's hand at work thru Mark and his DIL must give you encouragement....fences can be mended. Praying; especially for one of your fences to begin mending. Even just a start can go a long way. You opened the door....pray and hope your daughter will take advantage and let the mending begin.

Gerry

ger715 · 05-11-2012, 10:50 AM

Eva....the prayer to Mary I posted on Blessings...the last paragraph praying....

When evening creeps upon me
I'll never fear to be alone
Once again, O Blessed Mother
Take my hand and lead me Home.

I so long for her to take my hand and bring me Home to her Son.

Frequentily througout the day, I will say the complete prayer; especially when things get extra difficult.

God knows your frustration and hears you calling. He understands if sometimes the words seem to you that He might be offended. Nothing you can do or say, dearest Eva, will cause him to be offended. You are talking to Him. He knows you Believe in Him and in all your pain and frustration; still Trust Him. All He hears is your love.

This is the message you bring to us, here on NT.

Thank you God
Thank you Jesus
Thank you Holy Spirit

Mark56 · 05-11-2012, 11:23 AM

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Originally Posted by ger715

Eva....the prayer to Mary I posted on Blessings...the last paragraph praying....

When evening creeps upon me
I'll never fear to be alone
Once again, O Blessed Mother
Take my hand and lead me Home.

I so long for her to take my hand and bring me Home to her Son.

Frequentily througout the day, I will say the complete prayer; especially when things get extra difficult.

God knows your frustration and hears you calling. He understands if sometimes the words seem to you that He might be offended. Nothing you can do or say, dearest Eva, will cause him to be offended. You are talking to Him. He knows you Believe in Him and in all your pain and frustration; still Trust Him. All He hears is your love.

This is the message you bring to us, here on NT.

Thank you God
Thank you Jesus
Thank you Holy Spirit

Amen, Amen, and I shout AMEN!
In Prayerful Thanksgiving,
Mark56

ginnie · 05-11-2012, 11:26 AM

My PCP is definately in tune with me. All of me, including my emotional state. I am a human and not just a patient with him. Total trust for the first time in my life. He has definately said NO to one part of my surgery. He backed that with sound reasons, and looked over all my MRI records and procedures. He also told me to go back to surgeon for alot more information. Today, just a little bit ago, he intervened in my behalf, the issue of post op pain is settled. He is friends with my pain specilist, and asked him to do this for me. He has agreed, and I now will make an appointment with the pain doctor that has been good to me. The good Lord above does work miracles.

PCP acknowledges a complete rebuilding of the foot is traumaic enough. I will have replacement tendons, and ligaments, those that hold the bones of my ankle together. Three weeks after this, surgeon wanted to fuse my great toe. PCP does not thinkthat is a good idea , as it removes a persons center of balance forever. The ankle will be hard enough to learn to walk on again, without the center of balance taken away. He wants that treated for pain, and worry about it after I heal. He also said he does not believe that will solve the pain issue at all, because the whole pad of my forefoot is involved and full of arthritis, with all the rest of my toes involved. fusing one will not solve the problem across the forefoot. I agree.

Thank you Gerry, Mark and folks on NT, for helping me through all these issues. I am ever grateful for all your advise, comfort and prayers. ginnie

Mark56 · 05-11-2012, 11:32 AM

Is such a very good thing indeed.
Arms lifted up,
the night sky,
God's Milky Way visible,
talking to the Greatness which enfolds us,
Amen,
Mark56

eva5667faliure · 05-11-2012, 11:32 AM

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Originally Posted by ginnie

Mark, I know your prayer is important, it is to me too. I go the 17th to see surgeon. I must have dignity. This young surgeon, is arrogant, smart as a whip, but he must communicate with me. I have not been treated well, by many of the doctors and procedures hasledto more surgery because of mishandling of my case. Out of 8 surgeries, there were problems and complications with all of them. That is why I am not trusting right now to anyone except my PCP. This current problem was due to flat our negligence, and because of the statuet of limitations, I cannot do a thing to compensate this lack of caring. Eight years he took my walking away for no good reason. You know I have an anger problem. It is because of my past care being so hurtful. Now I am very frightened, as due to my research I am finding that CRPS is an issue and a risk factor with this surgery. No risk was mentioned. My PCP disagrees with the surgeon! One of the parts of this surgery he is telling me not to do. He gave me sound reasons, and backed what he said. So now what do I do? I feel kinda sick Mark, and my stomach has not been able to control the Gerds. With barretts esophagus already there, this is making that issue worse. I would appreciate all of this site, and the good souls here for any input. I am frightened. ginnie

i love you too ginnie

eva5667faliure · 05-11-2012, 11:35 AM

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Originally Posted by ginnie

i sure do hear your cry. We both seem a bit mess up this morning. I do know how you feel. With both of our posts, we need prayers and comfort like never before. My own family issues are in crisis. So is my health. You have the same kind of hurts going on. How i wish we could hug each other. I wish we could join our hands personally and pray together to get us through this mess we sometimes call life. None of it is easy is it? I am with you in spirit eva, time, space, get in the way of humans holding each other. That is one thing that will be removed when we go to heaven. Someday i am going to meet you eva, when this earthy trial is finished. We will make up for lost time, and be joyous together. For now, allow this impersonal pc to dissapear, for get it exists, we are sitting together, side by side, and there is peace. Ginnie

amen i love you ginnie

ginnie · 05-11-2012, 11:43 AM

I loved fiddler on the Roof. I do remember the conversations he had with God all day long. Good way to be. He had alot of anger too at times over those daughters of his! I am glad Jesus listens to us when we are upset. I am kinda like Thomas, I want to touch him. Not that I doubt, but I want his physical being with me. I want to hug him as crazy as that sounds. Things are moving right along now, and I do feel a bit more at ease. Thank you to Jesus, and all of you. ginnie

eva5667faliure · 05-11-2012, 11:56 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ger715

eva....the prayer to mary i posted on blessings...the last paragraph praying....

When evening creeps upon me
i'll never fear to be alone
once again, o blessed mother
take my hand and lead me home.

I so long for her to take my hand and bring me home to her son.

Frequentily througout the day, i will say the complete prayer; especially when things get extra difficult.

God knows your frustration and hears you calling. He understands if sometimes the words seem to you that he might be offended. Nothing you can do or say, dearest eva, will cause him to be offended. You are talking to him. He knows you believe in him and in all your pain and frustration; still trust him. All he hears is your love.

This is the message you bring to us, here on nt.

Thank you god
thank you jesus
thank you holy spirit

dear jerry

we just might be connected
with tears i write
because i do believe
he has shown himself
despite my dares

i love you too