Focus on Blessings

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

dear God i pray the
computer is okay
it seems as if someone
else were controlling it
has this happened to
anyone else

someone who cares

[JavaJan]

((((((((((((( Mark ))))))))))))))

HOORAAAYYY!!!

So glad to hear that the docs found out what was causing you all that pain, and that your
arm is saved! What an answer to so many prayers. Been thinking of you throughout the day and asking the Lord to watch over you. Isn't it amazing what wonders can happen when medical science is paired with God's strength and a few prayers?

Take care of you,
Jan

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

blessings for the day

thank you for another day
again as you know my heart
like no other plant a thought
in the lives of anyone in need
of help that feel there is not
a single reason to go on

i am here and awake by your will
there must be something very
important for me to do
now what can be more important
than family and faith
thank you Lord

my pooch is sooooo missed
oh didn't mention my daughter
gets a webcam for me yet to
hooked up and functional and
i could get my dose needed
for the heart
thank you Lord

my sister is in surgery
with her i am not
Angels please take
care of her and the
vision to return
thank you God

my heart open wide
my arms even wider
please help us help
ourselves
not to be a burden
i know i'm loved
yet they have no
clue what a slave
i am to my pain
get all worked
up and i get angry
and resentful bad
place to be
so we move on
thank you Lord

today i have an appointment
with my oncologist
morning appointment this month
booked with doctors
i am grateful i still have
my insurance
what a crappy system
private insurance i have
thank you God as you know
the truth

all have a glorious day

someone who cares

[eva5667faliure]

dear friends

oh God i don't want to
do it anymore
i want to say
blessed another day
and shame on me
oh God shame on me
you know all
yet again i am here
here days after days
the new of one of my
loved one are suffering
suffering hard clustered
leaves me helpless
pray i do
the heart
my heart
physically feels
pain when in such
sorrow
i don't know
am i being pushed
to the limit of no
return
and what good are
i if all i speak of
my negative feelings
are way to real as the
pain of everything
the morning began
with waking from pain
before the alarm for my
daughter to get up for
school but my crying is
enough
friday was oncologist
my adopted mom took me
as we were sitting waiting
a doctor of podiatry jack
his partner thomas both
started their practice i was
a patient when we i talked
about having two doctor in
thomas took care of my feet
as waitresses
5 nights a week 10 plus years
and doctor demos who
took a large vein length of
my leg painful when working
point i mean to make
they are still my doctors
just hadn't needed their services
he was now a patient with my doctor
turns out carol tells me she was
going to the her foot doctor
you guessed it
it was jack
sad
sad
sad
my baby eva
my oliver
that would be my script
todays visit
my doctor increased my
meds gave me a script
breakthrough for the days
especially in this last year
after season ended last year
i was mostly bed bound
put on much need weight
less than ten pounds
but needed all the same
all thanks to one of the
WORST THINGS
a person can do
it has to be pepsi
or coke to relax my
stomach it soothes it
i have tried all
as my doctors no all
i since have had pot
and it does help in more
ways then easing nausea
the act itself oh PAIN
all to live how
sad
sad
sad
my cries are constant
i am it doesn't (deceiver)on a journey
to know you GOD
am i worthy after such talk
i finally get my report from
my last ct-scan now need
disc
called facility
ready for pick up
took all the reports
asked my pain doctor
if he could kindly put
in a pile what he thought
he would be interested in
and he did and made
some for his file
that should say it
ALL
somewhere the
communication
just stopped between
doctors and workers
iv'e been doing all
the work
as only you know
my GOD
MY GOD
MY GOD
AS ONLY YOU KNOW

it was a Hell of a day

forgive me GOD

AMEN

[Mark56]

When pain o'erwhelms
and seems too tough
He hears our cries
provides His touch.

While pain may linger
and body ache
Our Lord abides here
living Love for our sake.

His tender mercy
knows every cry
and He holds us close
as He knows ever why

we will weep
our teeth gnashed
and sometimes feel weak
He lends us His flask

bidding "come child, now drink"
then He lifts up our chin
looking deep with His eyes
beloved are we of Him.zzzz

[ginnie]

I still think about you. You are always on my prayer list. I went to church this morning, and I did think about NT. I would probably do other things to ease pain if it were legal in this country. There use to be a compassionate group down here in florida, years ago, who permitted its use. alas, not in my lifetime I think. I am for anything, that can allieviate pain and suffering. I still think animals get better care sometimes than humans so with their sufferings.
I am sorry you are hurting so bad today.
I am in the process now of loosing my home. I can't stay here and survive anymore. Heck I can't afford the vitamines that will help me stay healthier!
I can't expect my son to pay for me to live. I am looking into public housing as a possiblity. I also will get some help from the neighbors to get my home in shape to show it. I am very sad over this, as I worked all my life, and so did my parents for this place. Nobody should be forced out of their paid for home because they get sick. My pain today is very emotional. Saw my pain specialist just an hour or so ago. I now have appt. for a second opinion on my ankles. My PCP doesn't want me to do the surgery. I will be glad to get this second opinion, and grateful I got the referral. I won't do anything if it will make the problem worse.
Keep the faith Eva, never let it go, and I won't either. We have such good people on this site, who always help us through the hard times. I am thinking and praying for you right now. Please pray that I have a way to find a new location. There are many legal problems with this home I am trying to solve. I need your prayers too. ginnie

[eva5667faliure]

Originally Posted by ginnie

I still think about you. You are always on my prayer list. I went to church this morning, and I did think about NT. I would probably do other things to ease pain if it were legal in this country. There use to be a compassionate group down here in florida, years ago, who permitted its use. alas, not in my lifetime I think. I am for anything, that can allieviate pain and suffering. I still think animals get better care sometimes than humans so with their sufferings.
I am sorry you are hurting so bad today.
I am in the process now of loosing my home. I can't stay here and survive anymore. Heck I can't afford the vitamines that will help me stay healthier!
I can't expect my son to pay for me to live. I am looking into public housing as a possiblity. I also will get some help from the neighbors to get my home in shape to show it. I am very sad over this, as I worked all my life, and so did my parents for this place. Nobody should be forced out of their paid for home because they get sick. My pain today is very emotional. Saw my pain specialist just an hour or so ago. I now have appt. for a second opinion on my ankles. My PCP doesn't want me to do the surgery. I will be glad to get this second opinion, and grateful I got the referral. I won't do anything if it will make the problem worse.
Keep the faith Eva, never let it go, and I won't either. We have such good people on this site, who always help us through the hard times. I am thinking and praying for you right now. Please pray that I have a way to find a new location. There are many legal problems with this home I am trying to solve. I need your prayers too. ginnie

dear ginnie

make no mistake i think of this place as my resolve for the day
all who take an interest in me and have gotten to know me in a different way as i like to look persons in their eyes when being spoken to and to those i don't know i hope they live a full life for myself there is no full life without God it may not be seen as another door opening when there is that doom like feeling having to leave memories only you know taken without
a thought of a way homes that have been paid in full and depending on their income may there be a cap on taxes so the unfortunate can keep what is there to keep i am sorry praying

[ginnie]

This place is my refuge too Eva. If I met you, I would look you right in the eye, then I would hug you in quick order. The spirit does work here Eva, as most of us can feel each other quite well. We get to know each other and all our strengths and in our weakness. God stays with all of us here, of that I am sure. I would hug Gerry, Mark, so many if I had the chance.
I really wish this state, provided a tax break for the poor. that is the problem I am having. Only if you are paralized neck down, do you get a break on the property taxes. If I moved back to MO, there is no tax like that if you are fully disabled. My mother did try very hard to protect me, and did all she could to save me from this fate through a trust. My government would not abide by it. I don't receive enough for taxes. So I am looking at a new adventure here. Praying for guidance right now. Some new door will open.
I am thinking about you Eva, and will each night when I go to sleep. I have a list now, where I try to remember each person. Church was good for me today, and I also received some really great sermons from NY. A friend from right on this site, brought me along to church with him! So this day anyway had two times in church. Maybe some new door will open for me Eva. I don't know yet.

I hope tonight you are in less pain. I wish we could be neighbors. I am sure that we would pray together. I do have neighbors down the block that do that with me. Have a peaceful night, and have some good dreams too. ginnie

[JavaJan]

Ginnie, I'm so sorry to hear that you may be losing your home. I'll be praying that as one door closes, God will open another. Maybe He has something planned that's beyond your wildest dreams! One thing I've found true in my life is that no matter how hopeless or discouraging things may seem, the Lord always provides what we need when we need it! Not always what we thought we wanted, but nevertheless, it's exactly what we need. I hope that there will be some GOOD surprises on the horizon for you! ♥

[RitaAirozo]

I am so blessed by your message of blessings!!! My cup runneth over with blessings. I thought loosing my best freind in April was the beginning of a very painful journey I was right but the blessings are abounding. My severe muscle spasms following my neck fusion are pretty much gone!! I never thought I'd walk without pain or even turn my head to talk with out severe spasms. God is so good to me!! It took many years of severe horrible pain in my feet and neck but God has brought me a long ways!! I still have to stretch 3 times a day with my exercises and cant forget the muscle relaxers but I'm doing so much better. I am truly blessed!!