sad and lack of energy

[BlueMajo]

A-ha !

Talking about hugs !?

Dear Bobby, Im sending you big hugs... I've been thinking about you... You are strong, wise, tender.... We love you.

[Mari]

Dear Bobby,

Years ago, I bought no salt cottage cheese (no salt added). It was awful ---- ok not really helpful for me to say that I suppose.

Perhaps you are trying too hard to have some control. I gave up control. Each year I notice I let go even more. Soon, I will be bothered less and less ------ especially, I mean especially if my anxiety can ever take a break and leave me alone.
So I guess I am talking about two things. One is an effort to recognize that we have no control and that trying to hold onto the control is counter productive. The second is that when when the anxiety is kicking and biting us from within, it is hard to live in the moment.

I remember that Dr. M strongly recommended this particular therapist if I remember right. And that you do not have an option to see no therapist. You need one and it has to be this one. Is that right?
I like that you want to talk to him and find a therapist for you closeby.

This might sound strange but I wonder if there is some one who could take two busses and walk with you to the new office so that once you have done the trip you will feel like doing it on your own. You could take a practice trip.

Or you could wait and see after you talk to Dr. M.


M

[waves]

Dear Bobby

i'm sending you hugs too.

i have to see pdoc today, after 3 weeks off. i have too many appointments this week and can't cancel any. i don't want to go to any.

i can appreciate the not wanting to do that commute. i like Mari's idea of a practice trip. but i'd hold out and talk to Dr. M. first. if he can't find a more suitable solution for you, then i'd try the practice trip. or if you don't mind having someone go the first time, so you don't have an extra trip. i don't know which you prefer though.

lots and lots of hugs your way, and good thoughts.



now i have to dress-for-outside to go see pdoc.

love

~ waves ~ who has been skipping meds because overwhelmed by so many.

[mymorgy]

dear Waves
i am sorry about the appointments and skipping meds. life is one big hassle. here these things are supposed to make us feel better and they seem to present a lot more problems.
i don't want to go to that place when i don't have to and can't get anybody to go with me except for that volunteer.
I appreciate all the hugs and good thoughts
love
bobby

[mymorgy]

Originally Posted by Dmom3005

Bobby

I think you need to have some more hugs.

I also think you need to pick one thing a day to handle. So what would
you pick today. Maybe two things, hugging and snuggling with kitties
each day. And oh I forgot you need to walk each day too.

Then lets tackle something, what though. Even if its hair washing.

Donna

thanks so much for the more hugs. I really seem to be going through a harder than usual time. once i have my teeth taken care of i know a big burden will be taken off myshoulders. I think I have to wait until they get worse or until the terrace gets retiled. I can't keep my kitties alone while workman are going through my studio onto the terrace.
I have to try to start reading again. that usually settles me down.
bobby

[mymorgy]

Originally Posted by Mari

Dear Bobby,

Years ago, I bought no salt cottage cheese (no salt added). It was awful ---- ok not really helpful for me to say that I suppose.

Perhaps you are trying too hard to have some control. I gave up control. Each year I notice I let go even more. Soon, I will be bothered less and less ------ especially, I mean especially if my anxiety can ever take a break and leave me alone.
So I guess I am talking about two things. One is an effort to recognize that we have no control and that trying to hold onto the control is counter productive. The second is that when when the anxiety is kicking and biting us from within, it is hard to live in the moment.

I remember that Dr. M strongly recommended this particular therapist if I remember right. And that you do not have an option to see no therapist. You need one and it has to be this one. Is that right?
I like that you want to talk to him and find a therapist for you closeby.

This might sound strange but I wonder if there is some one who could take two busses and walk with you to the new office so that once you have done the trip you will feel like doing it on your own. You could take a practice trip.

Or you could wait and see after you talk to Dr. M.


M

thanks about the cottage cheese. i was wondering about that. bingo when you said control. the worse i feel the more i try to control things until my world becomes so tiny. I will have to be conscious of that.I don't know if dr. m. wants me to see this therapist or not. I also don't know how hard it will be to find a therapist in the neighborhood who would see me twice a month.
I am trying to talk myself into thinking that the neighborhood will be safe because it is right near ccny. i don't know.. I do have a paranoid streak. I am not doing well at all.
i will think about control...maybe my biggest problem besides being bipolar and depression.
bobby

[mymorgy]

Originally Posted by BlueMajo

A-ha !

Talking about hugs !?

Dear Bobby, Im sending you big hugs... I've been thinking about you... You are strong, wise, tender.... We love you.

thank you so much
i love you too
love
bobby

[mymorgy]

Originally Posted by bizi

Maybe this is a good time to find a new therapist, why would he not let you? He wants the best for you I am sure of that.
bizi

that is a good question. maybe he is into control. I don't know. I keep on worrying that maybe he will change offices too. i will see him this saturday and find out.
bobby

[mymorgy]

i am getting more worried. I don't want to go to Harlem and it looks as if the office is in a separate house which makes me more paranoid. I wonder if this means i will lock horns with dr.m. and means i will have to find a new psychiatrist too. I am so angry at my therapist for how she dealt with this and i feel she was unprofessional and doesn't care about me and wrecked our relationship..
bobby

[ginnie]

I want to jump in with a hug to you too. I hate change in the worse way. I had to change doctors, and now have to travel a much bigger distance. However since seeing this new doctor, I think she is worth the extra effort to get there. Maybe you should give this new doc. and location a try and then make up you mind if this person is worth the extra effort. for me, it was worth the hassle. I too read bobby, to help me go through all the additional stress in my life. Lots of people are sending hugs your way. ginnie