Focus on Blessings - Page 86

ger715 · 07-09-2012, 11:14 AM

Yes, through the Power of The Holy Spirit; God did so chose Mary to be the Mother of His only Son. She knew the wonder of this baby growing in her. One can only imagine what she must have felt. To care, fed and watch this babe grow.

Also, to know the pain of seeing Him on the Cross. Together.....these are both Joyful and Sorrowful mysteries.
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Thank you God for the
Gift of Your Only Son.
Amen

(Gerry)

eva5667faliure · 07-10-2012, 11:30 AM

dear friends

thank you for another day

great news
my daughter
who suffers addition
worked hard for sobriety
was given sole custody
i ask you GOD never for
anything unreasonable
only to feel you and to
take care of my family
i ask you to please give

her a taste of what it is
to be Loved by you
she sees it through
her child Eva
Eva so precious
strong personality
a leader
so happy
my child is a
great mom i see it

watch over my son who struggles
with bipolar
does take his meds
however
insurance hasn't kicked in

my angel Saraeve is
finding her way living
with seizures her VNS
implant does not seem
to doing it's job but is
living her bliss
and continues to see
her doctors finding
ways to keep them
under control
she still is on
a significant amount
of meds

Corissa under my care
and guidance Love
that hurts is my job
to help when need be
and the time is here

oh God
were does the time go

allow happiness
to be in our life
for to much sadness
has fallen on this family
beyond my children
and but the fact
all other family
members live in
Hungary
it is a tiny
small family
my two sisters
nephew
my four children
are first generation
and the one left
parent after my fathers
suicide is in her own
world with her now
living with her divorced
husband and his family
and grandchildren
tough to let go of
miss the idea of a
mother daughter
relationship is filled
by a sweet elderly woman
Carol widowed miscarried
several times
asked her if i could
adopt her as mother
she was honored
make no mistake
i talk to God over
this issue and know
something has to be
done and i mourn
her loss
GOD watch over her

i am no where in
a position to judge

LORD HEAR OUR PRAYERS

looking forward to a way
of staying united and be happy

the rest is in you hands
i trust you GOD
i trust you JESUS
i trust you HOLY SPIRT
thank you MOTHER MARY
AMEN!

i wish all a blessed day

i am blessed

someone who cares

I BELIEVE!!!

:O)

Mark56 · 07-11-2012, 01:14 AM

Thus am I carried by His grace farther each day.

And I very much like your beautiful smile.

: o)
Mark56

ger715 · 07-11-2012, 11:42 AM

Without Faith...which we cannot see; but do feel in our very being, we are

indeed Blessed. What a beautiful gift.

Pray for those who do not know God or have Faith to get thru all the barriers

put in our way. Life is full of these hurdles.

With "eyes' of Faith, we can see beyond and know eventually there will be

a reward so beautiful...we dare not be shown it's entirety.

Blessed Trinity.....
Father, Son and Holy Spirit,

We Pray

(Gerry)

eva5667faliure · 07-12-2012, 01:35 PM

dear friends

dear God

thank you for another day

as i lay on my left side
fetal position
head curled
chin as close as i can curl it
is my comfort position
as i lay on my left side
with the PC on its left side
my arms using it as crutch
it hugs the computer
and i type with a pencil
eraser side
this is comfort position
i am in excruciating pain
the body feels as barometric
pressure fluctuates
when at the pool
my body feels so much
each step i take into
weightlessness angry
at my body and reminded
what did this man do to me

corissa and i are home
for a few days
my body hurts to much
and the emotional
thrashing between
teenage hormones
and flat out disrespect
i am a hard ***
when i know what
a person is capable
of
i do not like it
especially when i
open myself up
to the point of
being raw
that is how striped i am
physically
and it isn't visible
on the outside
until i over do it

dear God

only you know me
and what my worries are
my boss Mayor for my
previous home for 45 years
returned my call
arranging to meet
i am not capable of
employment as of now
i still have HOPE
but the reality is
it is what it is
i have all necessary
documents to show
my situation
i will need him to know
what the delay is

will this pain ever be lifted
dear GOD hold me up
make me strong
i know your working on
me spiritually
i get it
i feel it

my emotions are all over the place
if it isn't physical pain
need i say more
all who suffer physical
pain understands
what i am trying to
get out

my HOPE that i
be able to be there
for those who
need me
help me
so i may help
others hold on
and give them
HOPE
speaking to you
always
I AM BLESSED
YOU ARE IN MY LIFE

LORD HEAR OUR PRAYERS

thank you for letting me share

someone who cares

ginnie · 07-12-2012, 03:44 PM

I am sorry you are in such pain today. I hate it that you suffer like that. I pictured you just how you described. I feel bad that the doctor didn't do right by you. I wish there was a solution to the back pain. It is hard, to deal with all the things around you, at the same time dealing with the pain. You are always in my prayers Eva.
My house is on the Market. Didn't like the add or the picture of it, so realtor is doing it over for the next review. I have been looking at very small places, out in the country where I can have chickens! I figure If I have to leave here, I might as well go where I want to be. That would be away from the coast line. Much safer! I am in for change in my life. Hope I can be as strong as you are and meet this new direction, knowing Jesus is directing the steps. When I pray, I keep NT and those I have met here on the top of my list.
I hope there is some relief tonight. ginnie

ger715 · 07-12-2012, 05:02 PM

Dearest Eva,
My heart goes out to you. With all this physical pain; comes emotional pain and angry with doctor. I know what it is like to have surgeries that may be responsible for all my additional pain. Since fusion, 5 1/2 years ago, had bladder and bowel surgery. Bladder in mesh sling. Lot's of stuff about mesh these days.

After fusion, the pain still continued. Just before getting fusion; stupidly went to a laser spine place where they did incisions and used laser and actually this supposed doctor said he got rid of all the little nerve endings near vertabrae with laser. What did they do to me??? The doctor that did fusion/laminectomy found cysts between all my lumbar vetebrae. I believe they must have been caused by this doctor I allowed access to my spine. "what was I thinking". The doctor that did fusion told me (about laser surgery) there were no short cuts. That is what I tried to do.

Yes....angry....bladder surgery...mesh..result most likely stasis dermatatis of feet,ankles up to knees, along with edema...all this started within less than two weeks after bladder surgery. Also, PN worsened. I have difficulties; the pain, etc., but although there is some anger; I won't give the satisfaction allowing myself to get sick over these doctors as well.

Eva....Life is so difficult and your little one is now a teenager. Oh dear..that really requires patience well beyond most of what we can handle when in pain. But She does love her Mama. That she does .

Dear God...Hold Our Hand tightly....the road gets so bumpy.
Lord "hear our prayer"

(Gerry)

eva5667faliure · 07-12-2012, 08:03 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ginnie

I am sorry you are in such pain today. I hate it that you suffer like that. I pictured you just how you described. I feel bad that the doctor didn't do right by you. I wish there was a solution to the back pain. It is hard, to deal with all the things around you, at the same time dealing with the pain. You are always in my prayers Eva.
My house is on the Market. Didn't like the add or the picture of it, so realtor is doing it over for the next review. I have been looking at very small places, out in the country where I can have chickens! I figure If I have to leave here, I might as well go where I want to be. That would be away from the coast line. Much safer! I am in for change in my life. Hope I can be as strong as you are and meet this new direction, knowing Jesus is directing the steps. When I pray, I keep NT and those I have met here on the top of my list.
I hope there is some relief tonight. ginnie

my dear

you will have a place
in the end for certain

then it is making that
new start HOPE guiding
as you make it your HOME

that my friend
are your fancy for craft
new life
moving i pray
with the belief
as you mourn
you know you must
do whatever it takes
to make it work
TRUST IN YOURSELF
NEVER TURN AWAY
WITH YOUR GUT FEELING
GOD AT WORK
A REASON WE FEEL THAT
i grieve everybody's pain
especially those who don't
show it on the outside
i feel your pain of your
home being taken
i feel your pain
but we MUST move onward

"i'll get by
with a little help
from my friends"

someone who cares

eva5667faliure · 07-12-2012, 08:15 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by ger715

Dearest Eva,
My heart goes out to you. With all this physical pain; comes emotional pain and angry with doctor. I know what it is like to have surgeries that may be responsible for all my additional pain. Since fusion, 5 1/2 years ago, had bladder and bowel surgery. Bladder in mesh sling. Lot's of stuff about mesh these days.

After fusion, the pain still continued. Just before getting fusion; stupidly went to a laser spine place where they did incisions and used laser and actually this supposed doctor said he got rid of all the little nerve endings near vertabrae with laser. What did they do to me??? The doctor that did fusion/laminectomy found cysts between all my lumbar vetebrae. I believe they must have been caused by this doctor I allowed access to my spine. "what was I thinking". The doctor that did fusion told me (about laser surgery) there were no short cuts. That is what I tried to do.

Yes....angry....bladder surgery...mesh..result most likely stasis dermatatis of feet,ankles up to knees, along with edema...all this started within less than two weeks after bladder surgery. Also, PN worsened. I have difficulties; the pain, etc., but although there is some anger; I won't give the satisfaction allowing myself to get sick over these doctors as well.

Eva....Life is so difficult and your little one is now a teenager. Oh dear..that really requires patience well beyond most of what we can handle when in pain. But She does love her Mama. That she does .

Dear God...Hold Our Hand tightly....the road gets so bumpy.
Lord "hear our prayer"

(Gerry)

my dear Gerry

thank you for sharing

please look into a lawyer
i remember your story
please
i have never done
so myself
but if i should find
out any of my new
and abundant pain
has even the slightest
reason for it
it is time
first answer to my
QUESTION
WHAT HAPPENED
WHY DOES THE
LEFT SIDE HURT
WHAT HAPPENED TO
MY EYE
they were not equal
pupils my left
twice the size
of my right
go figure

someone who cares

ger715 · 07-12-2012, 10:04 PM

Eva...,

Just not up to doing all the lawyer/doctors, etc. Takes a lot to prove the connection.
I, of course, am not a happy camper what has been done; but try not to allow myself to
add to all the pain by emotionally stressing myself out.

Pray daily to accept what I cannot change and the wisdon to know the difference.

(Gerry)