Fear...that's of the abuse memories. Sometimes, I'm afraid, they can still hurt me. Probably doesnt make sense.
The hurting/ pain is physical and emotional. I have 'body memories' sometimes. That can hurt and the fibromyalgia hurts. Emotional hurt, cause they hated me so much. My family hated me and hurt me, cause I"m bad. That's what they told me.
My dx: DID, Bipolar II disorder, and C-PTSD.
Esophageal atresia, legally blind, IBS, asthma, OA and osteonecrosis
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