I can't take this, anymore!!!

[Ponygirl]

I know, I've posted about this, before, but, this anxiety is unbearable!!! I mean, I can't
stop thinking, "I'm 45 and I'm at the half-point of my life and I *don't* want to die, but, one day, I
won't have a choice!!

Phyllis

[Leesa]

Oh Phyllis, bless your heart. Don't even talk like that. Believe me, I've been in your shoes where I was so darned anxious I hated the world, but I really didn't want to die. I fought like the daylights to do whatever I could to make things better. I kept looking for the "right" therapist, the "right" medication, the "right" whatever!!! Unfortunately, since I've got a very addictive personalilty, I got addicted to the anxiety medication. So I had to stop that!

I found a GREAT therapist, who helped me immensely, plus my husband helped me alot too by telling me to ask myself "What's the worst that could happen?" So I kept asking myself that question when I became anxious and I could always accept my answer. If the answer I came up with was "The world might end, I usually could accept that. If it was " I might faint" --So what?? Who cares? I sure didn't. If it was "I might drop dead" -- Well, so be it. I could accept that too, but no one ever died from anxiety. LOL

So see? There's really not much reason to be THAT anxious, as I found out. I managed to "talk myself out of it" by just asking myself that question whenever I got anxious. Soon the anxiety started easing and in time it disappearred -- and it hasn't come back since. Pretty neat, huh?

Just thought I'd share that with you. Actually my husband helped me more than therapy did. Take care & God bless. Hugs, Lee

[Ponygirl]

Lee, I'm not sure, you're understanding my issue? I *don't*, want to die, but, I can't quit thinking about
the fact, that, one day, it's going to happen and I'm not going to be able to do anything about it!!
I * don't* want to die, but, one day, it's going to happen and I have to accept it, but, I can't!! That's, where
where my anxiety is coming from!!

Phyllis























































Lee, I'm not sure, you're understanding my point? I * don't*, want my life to end! I'm anxious, because,


it is, almost over and I can't control that!!

[Silver]

Heart jumping out of your chest, can't breath...This is too hart to explain in an reply. My suggestion is to buy this book, Heaven is for Real ;by Todd Burpo and Lynn Vincent. I really believe it will help you. God Bless. Silver

[Ponygirl]

Thank you, Silver!! *Something*, *has*, to help!! I'm 45 and I've been feeling this way, since,
I turned 41!!.....


Phyllis

[Leesa]

Sweetie, you've got a LONG life ahead of you. You're no where near the "end." But when it IS our time, we will be with our loved ones, not to mention we'll be with God!!! I KNOW you believe in God!

I look forward to it. Don't get me wrong -- I dont' WANT to die now either, but I look forward to when it is my time. I have LOTS of family who already passed ahead of me, and I will be with them too.

Do you believe in life after death? See, I do. I believe that there IS "some" kind of life after death. We may not have a "bodily" life, but I still believe that we will KNOW of a life. God promised that in the Bible and if you believe the teachings in the Bible, then you know He said we WILL have a life after death. We won't just die, and disappear into nowhere.

So please don't fear death -- for one thing, you're NOT going to die soon. And for another, you will still live after death ! Hugs, Lee

[Ponygirl]

Leesa, no, I don't, believe in, God. I don't think, I've, ever, posted around here, that, I did??
I believe, I'll be placed under-ground and that will be the end of it. I'm a very factual person and only
believe in what I can actually see with my eyes. Maybe, that's, the problem?!?...

[Leesa]

Oh, ok. I'm sorry if I sounded preachy. I didn't know.

But I WILL see you "up there." Just introduce yourself. LOL

[Ponygirl]

I just wish that every day would quit flying by like a split second, though!!!!!!





Phyllis

[Leesa]

I know what you mean. Seems that happens as we get older. It does for me anyway, and I'm 63!