Originally Posted by samrose86
I'm just really terrified I'll have to live with this and I won't be able to get out of my depression because of it.
This is one area where I believe each of us has a choice, because I've made
that choice three times in my life.
Chronic illness and depression go hand in hand in what is well-known and documented as a "vicious cycle".
Google: vicious cycle pain depression
Oddly, this phenomenon is unique to human beings -- the species endowed with the highest intelligence and
freedom of choice. I was locked into such a vicious cycle when I happened to catch the movie G.I Jane
on cable, and first heard (I'm a late bloomer) the poem...
I never saw a wild thing
sorry for itself.
A small bird will drop frozen dead from a bough
without ever having felt sorry for itself.
~D. H. Lawrence
That affected me profoundly.
Depression is anger turned inward
, and anger can be a powerful motivator. Once I realized this, I learned to deal with it; I've learned to use it to my (and others') advantage (when I recognize what's happening and make the choice). I can focus/channel it in positive ways to do things constructive for myself and/or others.
I can't -- and won't -- tell anyone that what works for me will work for everyone, much less anyone else. But I do believe that by using our intelligence to overcome depression (like using it to overcome other negative emotions) -- whatever that takes
-- we have the ability to turn things around, and we have the choice
to do that. We may or may not be able to do it alone; we all need support networks that include loved ones, friends, doctors (professionals) and other resources (internet?) the world has to offer. I also won't BS you that it's easy or anything, because it's not. It's hard work, but hard work reaps rewards.
I don't know what will work for you; working with your doctors to find the right mix of antidepressants, counseling, self-determination & distraction, or any of the other tools people use. Knowledge is power. I can tell from your posts that you're intelligent; use that gift, and make the choice. It will have to start with/come from within yourself, but once you make the choice and your determination known, help along the path is out t/here. (That's why I encourage people to help their doctors help them.)