Originally Posted by Eowyn
Really? The guy who is rabidly suicidal two weeks ago is looking into getting a rifle "to protect his family" and y'all are seriously engaging in the conversation?
Nick, please please please get treatment for your depression. It is lying to you about the worth of your life and the best way to solve problems.
Trust me; I have been there. There are better ways out.
If I had a list of things that I would never do, killing myself would be in the top 3.
I've already tried anti-depressants. They didn't really do much for me. My psychiatrist made a real good point. Let's say that someone is missing his thumb. Every time he tries to pick something up, he drops it or has trouble holding it. This makes him depressed. No matter how much medication he takes, it's not going to fix the underlying problem. Let's say that a man is depressed about his wife leaving him. If he takes the highest dosage of Paxil, will that bring his wife back? No.
What am I trying to get at? I have horrible cognitive problems and I seem to be getting worse all the time, instead of better. If I take an anti-depressant, will that fix my brain injury? Nope. Talking about it doesn't help either because communication is my biggest flaw and it ****** me off / makes me depressed when I can't get my point across.
I forgot where I was going with this.
I'm not gonna blow my brains out. I love my son too much to do that and would rather suffer for the rest of my life than take my son's dad away.
Everyone else, thanks for all the useful information. You've all been a great help.
What happened: I was randomly assaulted from behind in June of 2011. I was knocked unconscious for an unknown amount of time (less than 30 minutes) and have no memory of the event. CT scan showed contusion and hematoma of the left frontal lobe. I spent 3 days in the hospital. Diagnosed with Post-Concussion Syndrome in September 2011. Currently have Medicaid and SSI.
Current symptoms: Brain fog, anxiety, panic attacks, memory issues, confusion, problems with spontaneity, sensitive to loud noises, trouble thinking, problems with producing speech, spacing out, word finding difficulties, tinnitus in both ears, random tingling in different parts of my head and many other things that I can't explain. I'm very easily overloaded which makes it nearly impossible to watch TV or use the computer.
If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OK.
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these.