I'm so sorry you got bounced around by so many therapists. Thank you for sharing your stories. It is so true that others just can't relate that don't have mental disturbances, or at least very very few, highly intuitive, empathic people can relate. but i could add that if untrained empathy is a double-edged sword and normies would probably dx those folks as "hyper-sensitive." Anyway, thank goodness you have better care now.
As for me, I did not go to meet the new therapist
. I couldn't sleep the night before between tummy trouble and agitation. But truth be told I started feeling it in my "gut" (so to speak) the day before that I did not want to go, but could not think of a good excuse to cancel. Now I wish I had.... I cancelled in the morning 20 mins before the appointment!
See, week before
the missed therapy, I'd met with the psychiatrist a third time
. Each session with her was worse and more exasperating. The first was at least in part helpful, because it was an emergency and i was desperate. he did helped with perspective on one single thing. period. Since then i have got less and less comfortable. Already I saw her jump the gun too many times, and other things. Even if she is in good faith I do not trust her to do the best thing by me. Her position gives her too much power (my dx, state records, and my meds) than i am ready to hand over to her.
SOOO.... I shall not stay with the state center regardless of the unmet psychologist/therapist. I am going back to my "old" pdoc.
I called him today to touch base and let him know. I need a break to try and recoup and will call for an appointment in a bit but he said I did well to call and advise what was going on.
Now i have to get the other monkeys off my back
-- unmet psychologist - poor dear has nothing to do with my decision but has made direct contact for appointments, so, matter of courtesy.
-- psychiatrist - she said she'd respect either decision. she better live up to that.
last but not least call that stupid school.
I wish i could just have 2 weeks of bed rest and leave me alone, ya know? And i wish my mother knew how or were willing to follow my instructions to make chicken soup!
~ waves ~