There are three of us who have expressed their concern about their dad's anger at times.
Blue's dad gets angry. Wave's dad got angry resently,and my dad blew his top suddenly on many occasions.
This causes sudden insecurity for me,when my dad goes off. He's in a nursing home now,and I forgive him. He's always had this explosive anger.
I wonder if this has hurt Blue,Waves,and I traumatically. With this sudden insecurity,fear,sinking feelings,and pain of being fussed(explosive ranting,taring at self esteem,and etc.)at over,and over again,the memory of it lingers.
When dad was drinking it was double trouble. It was a no win scenario. He'd feel bad,but would not apologize. I'd be torn to shreds,and couldn't turn to anyone. What did I do? It was dad blowing off steam from his life's aggravations. BF