I know where Litchfield is. I have a friend who lived in Livermore Falls. My dad grew up at the head waters of the Androscogin in NH. Great country. In '92, I took my family back to your country and toured from Burlington VT to Mt Washington NH east all the way to Bangor then down the Maine coast.
Have you tried using ear plugs to take the edge off? They will also remind your kids of your sensitivity to sound.
Have you had any vestibular diagnostics done?
I know what you mean about wanting to cherish your time with your kids while they are young. Do they understand your struggles? There is no reason to not sit with them individually and explain things and tell them how much you struggle to be the mother you and they want you to be.
I am starting it all over again. My daughter who lives 15 minutes away had a little girl Sept 17. I love 'Papa' time. She gets a laser focus on my voice and smile. We'll have her for 2 to 3 hours next Friday. Good times.
btw, I am right in the middle of potato and sugar beet pickin' country. Plus seed and feed corn and lots of dairy farms. I miss the hardwood forests of New England.
My best to you.
Mark in Idaho
59 years old, retired due to disability, married 33 years, father of three, grandfather of four, Suffered a serious concussion at 10 years old (1965) stopped most driving after last concussion at 46 years old (2001), Post Concussion Syndrome/Multiple Concussion/Impact Syndrome with PTSD, immediate and short term visual and auditory memory problems, slowed processing speed, visual and auditory processing difficulties, insomnia, absence seizures, OCD, 14 concussions since first concussion at 8 years old, Taking paroxetine for 14 years and gabapentin for 12 years. Added L-Tryptophan and successfully stopped all paroxetine after 3 months of tapering down. I currently take 500 mgs of L-Tryptophan when I wake up, 500 mgs after breakfast with my vitamin regimen and 500 mgs late in the evening.
As of Nov 15th, Due to high stress issues resulting in PTSD, my docs put me on three meds. Clonazepam (Klonopin, a dreaded benzo but only for 30 days ) .125 mgs twice daily (Doc prescribed .25 mgs twice daily but half a tablet is doing good) , citalopram (Celexa), an SSRI , and olanzapine (Zyprexa), an atypical anti-psychotic before bed. I have lost over 30 pounds since mid July. The olanzapine is supposed to help me gain some of it back but it has just stopped the weight loss. They took me off the gabapentin. I am feeling better than I have in years.
I am also taking L-Theanine to help with GABA regulation
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