I have been thinking about you & wondering how you are doing with-it-all. It saddens me that you are still suffering so; and still dealing with such uncertainty regarding your living & work situations, the denial of disability status benefits there in the UK, etc.
If I can in any way serve to help/assist you in "thinking through" your options, weighing your decisionmaking factors, to hopefully get you to a more secure, longer term, amenable living situation
there, in which you may truly rest to recover, I will gladly attempt to do so.
Simply private-message me, whenever you feel able to do so.
We can work on it together a little piece at a time.
I know how valuable the same was for me a few years ago when I was newly-concussed and simply "could not think straight"
I do know how bonkers
that is, truly.
Like you, I had no family or local friends to turn to for assistance or refuge.
Lifelong longdistance friends
helped me to problem-solve, to make the move that was right for me.
I certainly can understand and empathize with "the wall"
as you so aptly have termed it. (I myself was still very much dealing with it, but a couple months ago.)
As well, I can relate to the inability to respond to emails or post replies.
No problem, we love you, think of you, send you good thoughts and all the best nonetheless.
I hope that you may be checked out soon this week re: the concerning facial numbness and prickling sensation. Do phone your GP or neurologist.
Hopefully someone will be along here shortly who has experience with same.
Thinking of you,
Originally Posted by andromeda
I can't read; I can't listen to music; I can't watch TV; I can't go for a walk; I can't even bring myself to reply to e-mails.
It's like there's a wall in the centre of my brain. Things can't go from one side to the other. Anything I try to do, like watch TV, just hits the wall and bounces back out again. I can't focus. My head hurts and I want to sleep, but I know if I do that I will wake up feeling worse.
I feel like my brain is numb. I don't even feel connected to it anymore, if that makes sense. I feel like a prisoner in my own body.
Last night I started getting this stinging, prickling pain in the side of my face, as if somebody was jabbing needles into it. It's still there this morning and I've no idea what it is. It's spreading up to my ear and down my neck, making the side of my face numb.
I just needed to vent that, I think. Thank you everyone who replied to my previous thread. I was reading and touched, I just couldn't reply.