Abbie!!!!!

[waves]

Oh Abbie. i'm so sorry i haven't checked this thread until now. this is terrible.

i am a bit confused. i get that the tdoc office is messing up your appointments. but have you tried calling your tdoc on her cell to let her know what is going on? i definitely would do that. and butterfly might have a point about the contact numbers on file at the office, since it is the second messup.

i know what it is like to show up at a tdoc appointment and find nobody there (not for same reasons). the result is the same. huge feelings of abandonment worthlessness, abject nothingness, i have felt like the void personified. when you are in bad shape and this happens it is a catatastrophic event.

but i would try the cell phone... in a previous post you said "she is a great tdoc" ... please try get hold of her direct.

sending lots of love and warm thoughts to you Abbie. you can get through this. you will get through this.

i will be checking in hoping to see a post from you.



~ waves ~

[Abbie]

I'm still here.
I sent a text message to my tdoc yesterday asking her
to get a message to my Pdoc re: a medication problem.

I got a msg back saying she had forwarded the information
on to my Pdoc. She also checked my contact info...it's correct.

I have a previously scheduled appointment with my tdoc on 12/7.
I need to get some fasting blood work before my Pdoc on the 11th.
probably should get that done by Tuesday.

Right now, I'm still existing. Went out and put a small Christmas tree on Ash's grave.....she so loved Christmas! Not for what she got but she loved watching the little ones!!!! You could always bet she would have a little one in her lap when they were unwrapping presents. I don't know whose smile was bigger....hers or the little ones. I MISS HER LAUGHTER...I MISS HER!!!!!

abbie

[bizi]

When you lose someone you love there are always firsts.
This will be the first christmas with out her. I feel for you.
((((((((HUGS))))))
love you bizi

[katmae]

Originally Posted by Abbie

I'm still here.
I sent a text message to my tdoc yesterday asking her
to get a message to my Pdoc re: a medication problem.

I got a msg back saying she had forwarded the information
on to my Pdoc. She also checked my contact info...it's correct.

I have a previously scheduled appointment with my tdoc on 12/7.
I need to get some fasting blood work before my Pdoc on the 11th.
probably should get that done by Tuesday.

Right now, I'm still existing. Went out and put a small Christmas tree on Ash's grave.....she so loved Christmas! Not for what she got but she loved watching the little ones!!!! You could always bet she would have a little one in her lap when they were unwrapping presents. I don't know whose smile was bigger....hers or the little ones. I MISS HER LAUGHTER...I MISS HER!!!!!

abbie

Dear Abbie,I am sorry that you are so down I hope that you can get your doctors to do something for you,you are in my prayers

[Mari]

Dear Abbie,

My heart hurts for you.

M

[Abbie]

I went to my Tdoc appointment today.

Found out my Pdoc is leaving....Tuesday is her last day. I do have an appointment with her on that day.

I feel like I have been kicked by a mule right to the center of my being.

1st my pain management doctor left... still do not have a new one...my primary doc is supposed to be finding me a referral.

Now this.... I've been seeing her for nearly 3 years. I had grown attached in a comfortable sense of the word. I could tell her how I was feeling and she would help me and adjust my medicines.

I don't want to start all over with God only knows how many Pdocs before a permanent one is found. It hurts to much to repeat my story to each doctor....it make me feel as if I am reliving it over and over again and I just can't keep doing that. I would rather be dead than do this.

How do I tell my Pdoc Goodbye?????

I just give...I have no fight left in me.
Abbie

[Mari]

Originally Posted by Abbie

I went to my Tdoc appointment today.

Found out my Pdoc is leaving....Tuesday is her last day. I do have an appointment with her on that day.

I feel like I have been kicked by a mule right to the center of my being.

1st my pain management doctor left... still do not have a new one...my primary doc is supposed to be finding me a referral.

Now this.... I've been seeing her for nearly 3 years. I had grown attached in a comfortable sense of the word. I could tell her how I was feeling and she would help me and adjust my medicines.

I don't want to start all over with God only knows how many Pdocs before a permanent one is found. It hurts to much to repeat my story to each doctor....it make me feel as if I am reliving it over and over again and I just can't keep doing that. I would rather be dead than do this.

How do I tell my Pdoc Goodbye?????

I just give...I have no fight left in me.
Abbie

Dear Abbie,

This "leaving" stuff is so hard.

For now, I have a practical suggestion ---

Get copies of your records from your pdoc for yourself. Have copies sent to the new pdoc too when you get the name and address.

It helped me when I left my long time pdoc that the old records were sent to the new pdoc before I even saw him.
When I walked into the first appointment, I saw my huge old file laying on the desk.

M

[waves]

I'm so sorry Abbie.

please be safe. take it one step at a time. i hear you thinking about how many times you have done this before and i recall when they were changing pdocs faster than underwear... i hope they find a new *permanent* fast and that you like them.

as far as repeating your experience over and over... i know you can't control the coming and going of doctors. but i wonder if it is possible to take a new approach. one that does not have you relive horrors for someone who leaves in a month. i wonder if you could tell the new person flat out what you said in this post, and talk about how hard the change in pdocs is for you.

perhaps once you communicate your basic condition, you can state that you want to work from the present. if the pdoc is around long enough for questions to come up or a need on your part to go into more detail, you can do it a bit at a time. i'm not sure if i'm getting across right.

i am trying to say can you seek a way to relate differently to the whole clinic-pdoc-situation. a way that won't seem worse than dying.

sending lots of love and hugs to you. i care and i want you to be ok.

~ waves ~

[bizi]

oh abbie, I am sorry.
Maybe you could type up a one page summary of your past...maybe you have some of it saved somewhere. I have a medical file that I update every so often on my computer. It lists my previous hospitalizations meds etc. I usually bring it with me so that way I don't have to worry about remembering the dates and such. This may be too much to ask of you.
again I am sorry you are going to have to find a new pdoc.....saying good bye is hard. You could get her a card if you wanted to.
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi

[Mari]

Originally Posted by Abbie

How do I tell my Pdoc Goodbye?????

I just give...I have no fight left in me.
Abbie

Dear Abbie,

Send her a text before your session so she knows that you want lots of specific help.
During your session she can give you suggestions about what can support you during this leaving. Maybe she can also point out the progress you made and help you clarify what you need to tell the new person.


M