I have decided that a beach could bring me some peace of mind....but the company would not so much!!!
Me and my BF have been going around and around for sometime now....It is not helping my health and I need to officially let it go!! I feel that he has tendencies to belittle me that can cause more emotional problems because financially I have lost my independence and kind of depending on him and he is in denial of my diagnosis....
**With that being said that is an argument because he has no MD and I am not in denial at all.
I have been searching for over a year to get a diagnosis threw hell. ***He use to play football in college and thinks that I am just being weak
***I do not need him to question this I need him to support this
**I cannot make him do anything
~*~Looking back at this relationship it started 5months before accident. So he does not know the real me
....Like the doctors say it is time to focus on me and my child
I have my family and not so much friends anymore. I feel more humble like this!! It is sad but in my eyes it is starting a new better healthier lifestyle~*~
I am replacing this relationship with making organic soaps
~Who knows maybe my love & joy of this hobby will become the next Burts Bees inc^^^It does not hurt to dream**I love going to the organic markets and getting oils, herbs etc for the soaps. The smells are so soothing for positive stimulation<<<<Wish me luck on my Organic soap making
What Happened: In 2011 I was in a MVA
Symptoms: Physical: I am always cold in any season!!I cannot tolerate anything pressure on my head(sun glasses,hats)longer then a hour,Lock jaw/Displaced TMJ, Dropsey, Hands go numb, Arms go numb, back of head numb (when asleep),Muscle spasms in face & upper body,migraines, concentration headaches, dizziness, nausea, neck and back trauma (from accident), tinnitus, extreme light sensitivity, noise sensitivity, EXTREME fatigue, impaired vestibular system, balance off, Pupils NEVER equal, disrupted sleep cycles,speech problems.
Cognitive: Cognitive Behavior, Brain fog, impulsivity, speech problems, word finding problems, slowed processing speeds, impaired visual memory, impaired complex attention
Emotional: Unable to handle stress or overstimulation without getting extremely irritable or angry, easily overstimulated, MAJOR depression, major anxiety, Panic attacks
Treatment so far: Treatment for PCS,PTSD,Depression & panic,Vestibular therapy, Physical therapy, Vitamin Schedule,Walking,No Dairy, No eggs, No caffeine, No artificial coloring, Sleep with 2 pillows, Very little sugars consumed, Eat healthy,No alcohol, Medications, limit stress and overstimulation.
~*~Learn to treasure yourself and your Divinity. Be willing to accept yourself completely. Be yourself, be graceful, be kind, be wild, be weird ... be true to yourself~*~