sad and lack of energy

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Dear Bobby

Originally Posted by mymorgy

i don't know how i am doing. i have been irritable. I have been angry. I have been a little depressed. I don't know why. I have really been delinquent on the boards. I haven't really felt like going to the senior center. I make myself go most of the time. what is wrong? i felt a lot of pressure last month worrying about my health and not calling the doctor and later learning i could have called him and if anything was really bad he would have called me. maybe all that pressure that didn't need to be has left me like this.

this can happen sometimes even with an antidepressant. And you're not famous for dealing with stress remember? So yeah, i agree it could be a backlash from all that buildup of worry and then finding out that no news was good news and it was "needless" worry. you also chose not to call him because you wanted to get the results in person - do you think you could be beating yourself up about that a bit... shoulda coulda type thing? it's perfectly reasonable to want the results in person. and now you know that they'll call you in if something is urgent. in this post you sounded as though you had energy but it had a negative quality. are you feeling any better now, or any different at all?

anna karenina turned out to be my most favorite book i have ever read. i am back to read junky books although i have a lot of tolstoy on my kindle. i want to read them. i don't know when i will.

just probably a matter of mood and pace. i'm sure you'll read them when you get sauced enough for them. and you will...

i am also tired of dieting and afraid to get on the scale because i have eaten a lot lately. i have been making corn muffins. yummy. i gave up again on eating pastry at the senior center because it really isn't that good. i have been eating a lot of grapefruit which i am now getting bored with.

yummy is right. i wish i could stop by and have corn muffins with you. i am sure they are much healthier than the pastry at the senior center. i've been OD'ing on dark chocolate with hazelnuts. i gained a kilo back. i don't know it could be more now.

I did buy Bach's Mass in B minor. it is so beautiful.

i don't think i've heard it. i'll look for it on youtube.

i think of you often.

i think of you too. i miss your company.

love

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[mymorgy]

dark chocolate with hazelnuts......yummy....better than corn muffins any day.
i am still in a major funk. everything is an effort. a friend wrote me. i thought she was angry at me because i didn't answer her email for three months. then i just sent her a joke...an off color joke about nine inch pianist....
i don't know if the wellbutrin generic is working any more. i will speak to the doctor on the 29th. how is he supposed to know if i don't know.
love you
bobby

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Hi sweetie,

are you taking 300mg wellbutrin? I think they can increase it still from there. It will depend on your sx what he will want to do. Do you feel activated at all?

i wish i could send you some of this chocolate but i am afraid of the conditions (heat) it might be exposed to in the mail. my girlfriend once sent me chocolate from florida and it looked and tasted like it had melted and recongealed about 6 times, it was almost one with the packaging and leaky... yes i ate it anyway , at least some of it.

then again it is winter now, and cold both here and there. i don't know if the mail routing will take it through the southern US. i suppose i could try... ROFL.

love

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[bizi]

have not heard from you in a while...
worried about you.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[mymorgy]

I am so sorry. I have been so depressed I have not kept up with the forum. I hope it passes soon. I see my psychiatrist on the 29th.
love
bobby

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Dear sweet Bobby

I'm sorry you have been so depressed. i was afraid of that. Your appointment is 6 days away now. Like i said i think your wellbutrin can probably be increased... in any case your doc sounds like he is willing to be creative and try different things. i have hope he will find a way to treat your depression successfully.

lots and lots of love to you, and big

((((((((( HUGGGGGGS )))))))))

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[ginnie]

We are all here for you. Try to do something nice for yourself, hot coco, some nice smelling body wash. Depression can be a real monster, but you can tame it. I care about you. ginnie

[bizi]

Thank you for stopping by bobby.
I am sorry that you have been so depressed. I too am waiting to see if a change /increase in welbutrin will help.
keeping fingers crossed.
love you
bizi

[mymorgy]

Originally Posted by waves

Dear sweet Bobby

I'm sorry you have been so depressed. i was afraid of that. Your appointment is 6 days away now. Like i said i think your wellbutrin can probably be increased... in any case your doc sounds like he is willing to be creative and try different things. i have hope he will find a way to treat your depression successfully.

lots and lots of love to you, and big

((((((((( HUGGGGGGS )))))))))

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thanks so much Waves. I wonder if the generic wellbutrin is working. this isn't a painful depression. it just seems to be robbing me of everything practically.
i still can read. i feel barren and everything seems bleak.
love
bobby

[mymorgy]

Originally Posted by ginnie

We are all here for you. Try to do something nice for yourself, hot coco, some nice smelling body wash. Depression can be a real monster, but you can tame it. I care about you. ginnie

I dont know Ginny. this monster has been hanging in there and i dont know how to attack it. I hope you are okay.
bobby