This rings SO true....sadly
The isolation, the genuine friendships turned shallow, the looks from others.
I swear there are those few whom I still have to be in contact with, the look I get from them when I have to 'say' what it is I have.....they may as well just roll their eyes at me. That's the feeling I get. It's infuriating to me that a 'genuine' friend of 30-some years has become 'THAT look'.
It scrapes the wound wide open all over again - every time this happens. Then the terrible lonely isolated feeling comes over me like a blanket.
TK, I'm so sorry. I'll NEVER know why we ended up in this situation.
It's the 'knowing' that people here understand completely - this is the only comfort. And my wonderful husband and my parents - I thank God for these.