Dear Steve,
Hopefully you can speak to your counselor tomorrow.
Meanwhile... can you cry? read Psalms? Pray? ... it doesn't matter if you just ramble, just open a channel you know... God already knows your suffering.
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There is a prayer for (all of) the dead which is also offered, in Catholic tradition, when a person passes away. I have offered it for your father. I will do again, also. I learned it in another language and it is beautiful in that language... it imparts a sense of peace. Here it is in English, if you want to try it:
Eternal Rest grant unto them, o Lord
And let perpetual light shine upon them;
May they rest in peace.
Amen.
hang in there dear heart.



~ waves ~