I still have my voice in my head, in fact sometimes I wish it would shut up! Sometimes the voice in my head is more me then the body. Does that make sense? I don't understand why I'm doing/saying/not doing things when I'm telling myself not to.
I also find that I can't visualize things in my head. The chalkboard that used to be there is gone. Like when trying to do math or something.
I kind of describe it like this too... I seem to only be able to access the outer part of my brain. I don't feel like I can go deep into it to think about something. More like I'm reacting and not thinking. The file drawers seem to be gone from the cabinet. I still remember stuff but only if its at the surface.
This confusing explanation probably didn't help much. Sorry its so hard to explain! Just feels like a black void on my head. Sometimes its buzzy, sometimes its cloudy, sometimes it hurts.
I can see it being really hard to diagnose something from one symptom. Maybe it would be better to focus on a solution and forget diagnosis?
Good luck to you!
I'm a 39 year old, female, accountant. On July 2, 2012 I crashed my bike at the end of a 65KM road ride. I was fine that day but woke up the next morning to my current world.
Ongoing symptoms include: dizziness, blurred vision, light and noise sensitivities, cognitive problems, uncontrollable emotions/depression/anxiety, headaches (but they're getting better), mental and physical fatigue, difficulty communicating and sleep disturbances.
Currently seeing a fabulous Neuro Psychologist and vestibular physiotherapist and hoping to soon see a neuro ophthalmologist. I am currently doing 20 minute stationary bike rides daily, 20 minutes of meditating, 15 minutes of Lumosity and lots of resting. I have not been able to work or drive since the accident.
The things that have helped me the most since the accident are vestibular therapy, gel eye drops (for blurred vision, sensitivity and dryness), amitriptyline (10mg), and meditating. I am finally starting to see some slight improvements and am hopeful!
My brain WANTS to heal itself... I just have to let it and stop trying to get better!