I've been feeling badly about not physically going to church for quite some time... I used to sing in the choir and was very involved in the Sunday School classes, pageants and special celebrations. I even worked with the homeless weekly through my church. That all seems like a different person now when I look back... and it's only a few yrs ago. I sometimes think I might try to actually get ready and go, navigate the parking lot, navigate the large building, etc and then I realize that I'm too exhausted to even try..... so I watch it online. I agree that you don't have to be in a bldg to pray and talk to God, but I do wonder if HE'd rather I try to go anyway....This conversation made me feel much better. I'm realizing i need to be very stingey with my energy....most people just don't understand this, but how could they? It's just so weird.... How can we expect 'civilians' to understand this?
Originally Posted by Blessings2You
You didn't hijack it, Doydie, you addressed some of the exact SAME issues I'm dealing with. I showered, got dressed, mentally covered all my maneuvers, etc...then at 11:00, I just couldn't pull the trigger. I kept picturing all those people--being nice, but being too much.
Again, nobody doing anything wrong--I know they care about me. My church family was there many times when my "real" family couldn't be. But sometimes even a "good" thing can be, well, too much.