nice to meet you all
Last 10 days have been a whirlwind. Long story short - ten years of chronic fatigue and strange pains, depression, chronic migraines, etc.
..(I am 37, married with 2 cutiepies. Moved from Wisconsin to Alpharetta, GA one year ago. Stay at home mom with online business).
10 days ago woke with double vision in right eye (most prevalent in the morning), then it makes me feel dizzy a bit rest of day. 4 days before that, lost some taste in the right side of mouth. I went to the dr. She sent me right to Opthamologist - eyes were perfect. Next day, my first brain MRI. MRI not perfect. I have lesions on my brain. Yesterday, my first neurologist appt. Surprised that I really like him. He stopped my crying with stupid jokes. Then had a spinal tap yesterday as well.
So, I have MS but Dr. doesn't want to officially say that till spinal results come back in a few days. He says I am having a mild attack, and not enough for steroids. Thank God, cause I don't want them.
He says very early stages of MS. But what about all these past years of fatigue and pain, etc? Is it fibromyalgia like they used to say also, or is it all MS...hmm..I keep thinking and wondering.
I am not worried about giving myself injections. I am just worried about side effects from these new MS meds that I will have to start soon. Blah....
Have been dealing with periods of positivity and then a little crying spell, then back to everything being okay, then more crying....just some grieving I guess. . Yet, I am relieved. I finally, after all these years have an answer and Doctors can no longer think I am a hypochondriac
I mean, its not like I was always feeling great and now with this diagnosis I am going to feel like crap. I have felt like crap off and on for years. Only difference is now it has a name.
I am already feeling very positive (probably due to my Spirituality and the strength I have built from all these years of suffering). This is NOT the worst thing in the world. There could be worse things to deal with. As long as I am here and alive with my family, while my kids are young....its ok. I am ok. Life is ok. That's all that really, truly matters. I can give and get hugs, kisses, play games, etc...I am not dying.
I am going to get super healthy and fit and look forward to that.
Wanted to say HELLO and I look forward to talking with you all.
For those newly diagnosed, your life is not over. This is just a new chapter in your story. It is up to you how the rest of the book will go.
Love, Light and Healing, ^i^