Focus on Blessings 2

[eva5667faliure]

dear God
dear brother
dear Mother Mary

hope for another day thank you Almighty Father

mothers day is soon upon us Mothers
you know who you are
you know how important
the part where honesty
is the answer to most questions
deep within the truth about ourselves
the connection you have with the babies
we gave ourselves to bearing children
in all different circumstances
and if i am going to be honest
i had my babies 1st knowing i
was meant to be a mommy at a
very earlier age and then my sister
was born
i was nine
and i was the one how
raised her as my mom
did her thing whatever
that was she could ALWAYS
ALWAYS count on me it would
be then she would sweet talk me
and get her way with me what she
wanted
anyhow
i remember the moment i thought
of the idea of being a mommy to
my own children
thank you dear GOD blessings
forgive me of any wrong doing
as i am sorry for any of my sins
and in it i must understand
forgive or not i don't know any more
as the one i trust will make sure all
all will be okay
all will be okay
have faith in you as i am truthful
that pleases you
i know i make you happy
as you feel my heart
and what goes on
thank you for that
very special feeling
not a high as in dope high
heck no
there is none of that feeling
all of us in this family are
addicts in one form or another
Christine was appointed a social worker
that is her ride
her psychiatric evaluation
and one on one
diagnosis sad depression "something"
wrote a script for Topamax and Wellbutrim
she tried to fast but couldn't she had to have sugar
this makes me cry cry cry cry cry cry
she is trying
jeezzzzzzzz
LOUISE
WHAT THE HECK
got to do what i must
i will be just fine
we will sit she will draw
as i give her a booklet to
write in and we will be on the veranda
my time with EVA
GOD made it that way
again happy mothers day to those
who mean it

with this one mother
and BLESSED WITH my FOUR babies
and with truth to my children
Mother Mary
my angel awoke from a long nap
mommy was up with her till four
a.m. she should be at the doctors at
some point
the baby is up i'll come back
later blessed i am

to all blessings


someone who cares

[eva5667faliure]

I am sure you all
are anticipating
the homemade
mothers day
cards and gifts



to my mothers out there


happy mothers day

[Mark56]

a Happy Mother's Day to You,
dear Eva,
who in being one who cares
brings many blessings to
those who read and react
to your life threads

Wondrous,

[eva5667faliure]

dear God
brother
Mother Mary

thank you for another day

to begin
where
all looks the same
you look great
thanks
i go to take a step
and i can't move
i am paralyzed by my
pain
God i accept my fate
i will remain your worker
help me with my last child
it is so hard on me when in
such times pain will be as
there are many bouts i go through
the neighbors must think i'm nuts
as i go around the house talking to
you
my child and her not
doing well freshman year
as there are courses she must
repeat
help me be as mush of any help i may offer
that will make a change a turn for
15 teen she is not being truthful
she will not see the laziness she
has she will not deny it there was
structure when she was born till
7th grade when i became sick
and here comes the tears
i cannot give like i must
when i couldn't drive or
pick her up from school
it is at this point things began to change for
the worse
she became exposed to the hoopla
that goes on in the bus and no proper care
with the additional mandatory 2 per bus

anyhow therapy next
spoke with her dad
and assured me of
support in what ever
must happen
with the history of
my genetic family
minus father
as he committed
suicide in 1980
he was forty eight
years young

so much agonizing pain
on so many levels
at times more than i like
would like to admit
i have a pride thing
i need to let go of
getting sick was not by choice
being in this current
time it has continued to worsen
meds are helping without hurting
like nausea i cringe when i have to hurl
it hurts

God give me the help needed to get Corissa
to give herself honestly
she fibs quite often
say's afraid i may say NO!
and that you all know
i must keep connection
no matter what
she will be home soon

Lord hear our prayers
i trust you Jesus
i so trust you
thank you
you Rule
as i trust you will provide
whatever necessary
to help her in life
as in mine
and my family
blessed in all of it
all for reasons to learn

someone who cares

[ger715]

Eva,

Please tell Corissa I care very much about her. She is and will be a woman that will make you very proud. I believe that with all my heart.

Love & Prayers,

Gerry

[eva5667faliure]

i most certainly will
tell her how much you
care
thanks Gerry
sending
LOVE, STRENGTH
AND HOPE

as this person is

someone who cares

[eva5667faliure]

dear God
brother
Mother Mary

thank you for another day

may i see my blessings
before me
let me not get
complacent in my
my sharing
as i made a
promise
let me see how you
use me to make a
difference
and that was a heck
of a mission accomplished
by the strength and power
of the truth
let me see you have been
pleased as i come from
speaking of your name
you are a constant force
the entire time
and therefore my behavior
is not bizarre when i have
open dialogue with you

blessed to be here is a huge
step as my mechanics and
use of my head is not well
i am certain something is
terribly wrong
God you know what i speak
of
i pray for a miracle
i have since my change
in my intake of my meds
have been rearranged
where i get most benefit
and am good to do the simple
things around the apartment
a huge step for me

being treated for pain structurally
is working (extreme nausea)
being treated for my nerves
damaged after surgery #2

we will find out once pics are taken

blessed to know i can socialize
with pool regulars
we shall go opening day
next Saturday
fly your American Flag
with it's true meaning
be selfless
show your appreciation
to many families in
remembrance
AMEN!

blessed i sure am
striving to please
my creator by aiming
to just by doing the
right thing
be kind
be courteous to
others

GOD IS GOOD!
GOD IS GREAT!
THE SPIRIT LIVES
THROUGH US
BELIEVING IN THE
SON OF THE FATHER

AMEN!
our brother
Jesus Christ

someone who cares

[eva5667faliure]

my creator
my brother
a mother who understands
the true meaning of motherhood
and the pain of the loos of her child
Jesus

my fear grows
as new pain evolves
my doctors on my train
at the moment are
my pain specialist
my shrink
female organ doctor OBGYN
(cancer)
oncologist

i hear from persons how
great i look i put on about
15 or 20 pounds more latter
and my body looks it best as all
is filled in
there isn't that gaunt look that
my cancer did to me
(always go with your gut
that's a message coming
if you believe)
today
after having a unusual week
i have a long neck
although height has been taken
after second surgery (not as long
as before surgery) and the back of my neck
no longer has a curve to it before we get to
the shoulder
the right side always was the predominate
side
not the case as of today
as i know changes were happening
no one will EVER make me think
differently
as i personally with several
ego maniacs blaming the patients
fault
never thought waking up to get
ready for work feeling as though
i had the ONLY STIFF NECK
o h how i will never forget
and wish that would have
been the case
not so lucky
however as long as i have
FAITH my creator is capable
of granting miracles
this is what i pray for
as i do my part
spread your teachings

the prayers

the faith

the hope

the care

AMEN!

TO OUR CREATOR those who need some sign
like myself to hope some angel was listening
and guiding
thy will be done
AMEN!

i trust in you
i trust in you
i trust in you

give us this day our daily bread

someone who cares

[eva5667faliure]

sweet Mother Mary
brother
and Father

thank you for another day

my unexpected phone call
brought all i am angry about
that constant reminder
because of my pain is the
thing i am working on
to deal with day to day
issues are not as easy
like before i became ill
just the simple act of voiding
is a painful process to dress
and undress myself the same
sling back sandels no more
flip flops
being on the floor is the
safest place for me
especially when my baby
comes to visit
and it is important to get
down to a child level
physically that was an FYI
my mother Mary
teach me to help them
even more
children LOVE ME
it always has been that way
BLESSED I CERTAINLY AM

I LOVE MY ROLE AS A MOTHER
OF ALL THE PAINS WE HAVE
BEEN THROUGH
MY REWARDS CANCEL IT OUT
AND TO BE A MEEMAH A GRANDMOTHER
TO MY ANGEL
I LOVE MY ROLE AS MEEMAH JUST A TAD
more

my grandchild brings life into this house

may i have the opportunity to dance at
her wedding

i trust you my brother
i trust you my mother
i trust you my father

keep me real
wouldn't have it any other way

someone who cares