Hi dear Anastashia ~ Welcome to the forum. I can certainly understand. I'm so sorry you're suffering so. This is so terrible. We trust our doctors to take care of us, and then some of us end up damaged for good.
I had 2 open spinal surgeries to take care of herniated discs. What I was left with was permanent sciatica,(nerve damage) and it's extremely painful. I've had it now for 26 years, and to tell you that I'm tired of it is an understatement.
Best of luck to you Anastashia ~ I hope and pray you find relief for your pain. God bless. Hugs, Lee