Feeling so anxious lately, but my nails look awesome!

[waves]

Dear Pam

Again, gorgeous manicure!!! love the color itself and the stamping combo!

That red sort of reminds me of maraschino cherries, or even red coral... but it seems even more intense than either.

i also hope your lease gets signed soon. Since i started this English course, i have been taking lorazepam more frequently too so i know how you feel. i refuse to take it every day, but on a couple of days i've gone and had beer instead. i've also been having an inordinate number of migraines. perhaps if i'd taken the lorazepam daily - or at least more often - some of those could have been avoided. couldn't when i needed to though, because it makes me sleepy. (i take 2.5's and i need the entire dose.)

i think it's good you are allowing yourself to take it daily if it helps and does not get in your way.

However, i really do hope the rental folk are responsive to you, so you can feel better and avoid the extra med. i totally understand not wanting to take more than you do, and even being wary of having it every day.

~ waves ~ with lease-renewal vibes

[Mari]

Hi,
The time of renewing the lease I think is cause for anxiety even for people who do not have anxiety issues.
Our homes are so important to us.

Lots and lots of hugs.

M

[Pamster]

Thanks everyone! I am feeling better today, I spoke to the manager and got our documents back so now we can actively shop for a loan, though we're most likely going to run into road blocks with trying to use the 1st time home buyer funding. But we'll see. I am not going to worry myself into a breakdown over it. I have hope that things will get better soon. It's rough, emotionally, so I have to just take it day by day, and try to go with the flow so I don't get overwhelmed.

Thanks so much for the well wishes, hugs and good vibes, it means a LOT to me.

[bizi]

So glad that you got your documents back good luck and keep us posted.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

[Pamster]

I was so relieved when the manager immediately got to work on copying my original documents and came over with them for me, it was a great thing. Now we have to get on the loan shopping aspect of trying to get into a new home. Fun, fun, fun....For some springy fun check out this manicure I did last night:



I am feeling a little less anxious now that I have our documents back, but I had a busy day today. So that may have had a lot to do with it. I feel so ill though, like my stomach, I think it's an ulcer coming back. I am going to call my doc on Tuesday as I think they'll be closed on Monday in observance of Easter, and ask for my Prilosec to be bumped up again, stomach symptoms are the worst, especially when coupled with the anxiety, its like it makes it much worse to deal with and harder to get rid of the anxiety when my guts are rippling with waves of anxiety and aching.

Will see if that helps. I am so sick of feeling this way. FEAR STINKS....And it's not like I can even totally identify WHAT is causing it most of the time. Hopefully it's going to be okay. We cleaned Turtlini's tank today and he wanted to say "Hi" he's gotten HUGE compared to his baby pic in my siggy...Hope you like the pic of his waving!

[bizi]

he needs his toenails trimmed!
just kidding, I don't think they should be trimmed really.
thanks for posting a picture of him he is huge!!!!
hope your doc increases your med...isn't that over the counter now?
you can try on monday they might be open?
bizi

[Mari]

Pam,

I hope your anxiety abates.

'Love your pictures of your yellow and green nails.
Turtlini looks good.


M

[Pamster]

I know right? His toenails are LONG!!! I hear they get even LONGER with time, they do this weird thing where they hold them up in front of their eyes and shake them rapidly, its like he goes into a trance, he does it at the pebbles in the tank and he used to do it at our hands sometimes, it's FUNNY TO see. We called it "Worshipping the pebbles" because he looks like he's giving thanks. LOL! I will call tomorrow about the med, I am sure they'll bump it back up for me, he had no trouble doing that before. So he'll do it again.

I don't feel nearly as anxious today, I have gone a couple days, maybe even three days, without taking any lorazepam. So glad you and bizi both enjoyed the yellow and green nails. And that you liked seeing Turtlini's hello picture. Hope all is well, we're just kicking back this Easter weekend, we're going to dye some egg's tomorrow, but other then that and sharing some Easter candy, we're going to chillax.

[waves]

Just don't get the kooky notion to paint Turtlini's nails!

he would NOT like that!!!



Enjoy your Easter tomorrow Pam. (((hugs)))

~ waves ~

[Pamster]

LOL!!! Oh yeah he'd bite me but GOOD if I tried to paint those things!! You know they make glitter polish for Horses though right? LOL! THey really do! LOL!

Thanks waves, I hope you have a nice day tomorrow too!

I hope things are going well for everyone!