You make me feel so much better, even though your post brought tears to my eyes. I have so many questions about this surgery that unless I get the answers, I can't do. With the re-building of the ankle, the second part is to fuse the great toe, three weeks into the healing process. I am afraid to do this, as the pain from this toe, happens even if it is motionless, and extends to the whole bottom on the pad across my foot. If I don't do it, I am afraid I will never get up on my foot again and walk and have the physical therapy not work because of this toe and pads. The point is to stop the joint from moving at all. So if I have to walk on it anyway how is this going to stop the pain, in the toe and across the whole of my foot? This is just one issue.
I do go tomorrow to the new pain specialist. and then thursday to my PCP, bless his heart for getting me in. Eating is a real issue, as my stomach is so upset all the time. That Gerds, which developed to Barretts esophogus isn't good, and this whole upset has made this dangerous.
The plate is full, and I do know that, I am just grateful, my friends, and you waves can understand all that has piled up on it. When you have the understanding and compassion of friends, the weight of it is less. I have also had my son add to my fright. He promised to pay my taxes, told me he did in fact pay them, and then I got a deliquent notice of four months late. I don't get enough from Disability and SSDI to cover my taxes, nor am I allowed to even have that much money according to the rules of those agencies. This let down and knowing I can loose this place is creating a depression that I am not dealing with very good. That is on the plate too. He had promised to help me keep my home until the trust issues were resolved.
I have too much stress, am loosing weight, and I can't wait to see my PCP for help. I am indeed overwhelmed, and seek a clear way to get through this.
I will need all of you, no question about that if I am to keep my sanity intact.
The smile is a big sarcastic if you know what I mean.
I am reading and trying to distract myself today. Have a good book going. I am prepared as much as I can to meet the new physician tomorrow. I will be back here for sure, as much as I can. Love all of you.....ginnie