Hello All from Ginnie good news!

[ginnie]

Yes, I have to get up off my butt now and solve some of these issues I am having. Calling the PCP now, busy.....I also talked to my psychologist friend of 30 years this morning. He told me to channel the anger to where it belongs, with the doctor who misdianosed me. I can't help that I am going to have this upcoming surgery, in order to walk again well, but I can feel better going through it, by action. I am going to find the attorney, yes. This crippled me litterally for 7 years. Then on Wed. I will try to trust this new pain specialist, and get my records, research it so that I am satisfied. I willl ask for a new appt. with the surgeon if I have any more quesitons.
Will ask the PCP if I can take more of the zanax while I go through all this. I never take more than what is prescribed so I have to contact him. He also has a copy of my medical MRI just taken, he may be willing to dicuss it with me too. I am tired of crying and being angry, so I am listening to all of you. You all have been correct in everythiing you have said to me. It is up to me to stop crying, and start moving forward in a better direction. I won't ever loose touch with any of you. You have been my help and support. I keep your posts, and I will re-read them to get strength. It is hard sometimes with what has been put on our plates, I guess it is all in what you do with what is on your plate. This will be a better starting point for me now. I will get through this. I know I have you backing me. Love you all, ginnie

[bizi]

crying is cathartic. You have suffered and I am glad that you have someone to talk to when needed. He sounds right on the money.
take care of yourself.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

[ginnie]

Yes my PCP will see me on thursday of this week. I will tell him what is going on, and I know for sure he has a good heart. He knows I have emotional issues too, and some of the reasons I get upset. It will turn out OK, now that I am off my butt and moving.... ginnie

[waves]

Dear Ginnie,

I am glad you talked your psychologist friend. It does sound as though he helped you sort out your thoughts and feelings some. Perhaps going ahead with contacting the lawyer is a good thing... in terms of channeling your anger.

You sound much more feisty at this point, even though you are still suffering... you have a new attitude and an itinerary for going forward. Good for you, Ginnie... I admire how you are taking things in hand.

Excellent that you are seeing your PCP and I hope he will agree to discuss the MRI with you, to whatever degree he is able, even if he is not a specialist. I think he will probably agree to let you have more Xanax... or if not he will give something else to help you I am sure. This is a big deal you are going through and the level of anxiety does not help - anxiety also increases pain levels.

Ginnie, i feel so bad you have so much on your plate. You have not been dealt a simple plate, but a huge platter, and it is overflowing. I truly hope that things will be taken care of and that come a day you will be feeling oh so much better and this will all be like a bad dream.

I wish you well with the new pain doc. There are good doctors out there, so I am glad you will try to be open to this new doc. I hope he is kind and supportive. You deserve that and more.



((( hugs )))

~ waves ~

[mymorgy]

we are all behind you
fondly
bobby
Go Ginnie!

[ginnie]

You make me feel so much better, even though your post brought tears to my eyes. I have so many questions about this surgery that unless I get the answers, I can't do. With the re-building of the ankle, the second part is to fuse the great toe, three weeks into the healing process. I am afraid to do this, as the pain from this toe, happens even if it is motionless, and extends to the whole bottom on the pad across my foot. If I don't do it, I am afraid I will never get up on my foot again and walk and have the physical therapy not work because of this toe and pads. The point is to stop the joint from moving at all. So if I have to walk on it anyway how is this going to stop the pain, in the toe and across the whole of my foot? This is just one issue.

I do go tomorrow to the new pain specialist. and then thursday to my PCP, bless his heart for getting me in. Eating is a real issue, as my stomach is so upset all the time. That Gerds, which developed to Barretts esophogus isn't good, and this whole upset has made this dangerous.

The plate is full, and I do know that, I am just grateful, my friends, and you waves can understand all that has piled up on it. When you have the understanding and compassion of friends, the weight of it is less. I have also had my son add to my fright. He promised to pay my taxes, told me he did in fact pay them, and then I got a deliquent notice of four months late. I don't get enough from Disability and SSDI to cover my taxes, nor am I allowed to even have that much money according to the rules of those agencies. This let down and knowing I can loose this place is creating a depression that I am not dealing with very good. That is on the plate too. He had promised to help me keep my home until the trust issues were resolved.

I have too much stress, am loosing weight, and I can't wait to see my PCP for help. I am indeed overwhelmed, and seek a clear way to get through this.
I will need all of you, no question about that if I am to keep my sanity intact. The smile is a big sarcastic if you know what I mean.

I am reading and trying to distract myself today. Have a good book going. I am prepared as much as I can to meet the new physician tomorrow. I will be back here for sure, as much as I can. Love all of you.....ginnie

[bizi]

That is awful what your son did to you. There will be penalties you can make payments I think or should be able to.
Why would your son lie to you about such an important matter is he young?
Hopefully your trust will help you soon. you need all of the help you can get at this point.
Are you following the same kind of diet that waves has put herself on it is in the diet thread if you are interested, very bland.
hugs to you today dear ginnie,
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

[ginnie]

My home is in trust to me. The account that came with it was suppose to keep me in my home to pay the taxes. The Gov. didn't let me keep these funds. I could not get benefits unless I spent all on my medical problems. I do not recieve enough in a month to begin with to pay for my taxes. The former trust was to do that. I am not even allowed to "have" in my possession the amount it is to pay it to begin with. My son, promised to pay the taxes for me. I turned the home over to him and made him trustee, as I was in this position with medicare.medicaid after loosing all two generations saved for. I didn't have health insurance as I had pre-existing conditions, which effectively removed me from the insurable pool. I have been sick since I was 29, supporting two kids on my own,paying my own medical bills. I didn't pay into Social Security enough before I was forced to retire. Thereby I don't get alot each month. So little in fact it is not possible to keep this home. I am trying to find a lawyer to go pro-Bono to find a way to sell the home before my son causes me to loose this too. Being sick in this country should not cause a person to loose all they have worked for in their lives. I at least tired. My parents knew this and tried to unsuccessfully protect me with a document my gov. ignored. ginnie

[bizi]

hugs to you today.
((((((HUGS)))))
bizi

[Dmom3005]

Sending hugs to you ginnie.

Donna