Milo, I'm sorry about your loss. Your husband is barbaric, I'm sorry, but I've been in an abuse relationship and you don't deserve such cruel treatment.
Each person grieves differently and each over different periods of time. My cousin shot himself and I'm still angry with him almost a year later. I keep waiting for his call which will never come again. I ask myself, how would your husband have felt if the situation was reversed?
To get over all that comes with suicide, this is the one place, no one judges, no one points fingers...we all have dealt with it.