Oh Mary, i'm so sorry you are going through all of this now
. I really hope that you start feeling better soon and I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
I know what you mean about wondering whether things can get any worse and I have to agree with Karen that when I think they can't, they usually do! The thing that I find really helps me is seeing people that have severe RSD and seeing how they hardly complain and just try to get on with their life - it really helps make me realise that things could always be worse and that I have to be grateful for what I can do.
Don't ever feel guilty for writing how you feel, we are all here to listen and support you and most of us DO understand some of what you are going through.
If you ever want to talk, I am here for you. Sending you many gentle, pain-free hugs.
Please keep us updated when you can.